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Heavy Sweetness, Ash Like Frost (3rd Epilogue)

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So, I have just finished Heavy Sweetness, Ash Like Frost by Dian Xian. Overall I enjoyed the book and would recommend anyone wanting to try a xianxia Chinese Novel.

I now leave you with the 3rd epilogue, which closes the main characters’ stories. I decided to translate this because it leaves a lovely sweetness behind and it ties up the main characters’ stories so prettily.

The disclaimer is that chinese is not my first language, and I have taken some artistic liberties with the translation. In other words, it’s not verbatim (and I might have gotten some parts skewed) but I think the important bits are all there. If you see any inaccuracies, let me know and I will correct them.

Peanuts: For a quick summary of the latest epilogue, please visit my pal’s blog Dorayakiz.

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While Phoenix is still a bit moody, he always grants my every wish. No matter how much lingli I shamelessly ask for, he will give it to me without a single complaint. Sometimes, after receiving so much lingli, I ask myself, “Do I really like lingli that much? What do I want to do with so much lingli? Since I’m neither a soldier, nor hold political power, having so much lingli is truly a waste.”

One day, I awake in the middle of the night, having suddenly figured it out. I concluded that actually, my asking Phoenix so shamelessly for lingli is just a way for me to prove that Phoenix actually loves me; that he loves me as much as the lingli he gives me – an infinite amount of love. After that, something happened to prove my conclusion.

That day, I took our baby to fish in the River of Forgetfulness. Umm… let’s just treat it as fishing (After hearing from the Demon Realm’s First Highness that there are many souls of beautiful ladies at the bottom of the River, I thought that it would be quite good if we could fish a pretty lady mermaid to be my son’s child bride).

After half a day, we still had not managed to catch a single fish. However, we caught sight of another type of fish [1].

I suddenly caught wind of a strong xianqi. I raised my head and saw a group of immortals riding the clouds across the River. The white clothing of their leader billowed in the wind, his carriage elegant – who else could it be but the Heavenly Emperor himself? Just as I was thinking of whether I can pretend not to have seen anything, he looked down and met my gaze. He stared for a moment before turning to speak with the other immortals. He then flew down to land beside the two of us.

He looked at me and I looked at him, both of us not knowing where to start; the atmosphere was a little awkward. Finally, he opened his mouth but did not speak to me. Instead, he bent down and touched Tang Yue’s chubby cheek, smiled and asked, “What are you doing here?”

Tang Yue blinked his eyes and answered, “Fishing for a wife.”

His Majesty stilled for a moment before laughing, “Surely this must be your mother’s idea.” He then asked, “What is your name?”

Tang Yue is at times just like his father (having inherited his arrogance at a young age), and will sometimes refuse to answer when questioned. He fares just slightly better than his father in that unlike his father, he will not embarrass the other person by blatantly ignoring him. He will just change the topic. In this case, he fiddled with his hook and asked, “Why don’t you join us fishing?”

I was afraid he would hurt himself on the hook, so I rushed to take the rod away from him. I instructed him, “Call Bó Bó (uncle)”.

“Bŭ bŭ.” Tang Yue looked up at His Majesty.

I suddenly realised that when Old Carrot first visited us, he was still little and could not speak well. I was afraid he could not pronounce Old Carrot’s name, so I taught him to call Old Carrot “Bŭ bŭ” from “hú luó bŭ”. Now, my son has confused bó bó (ie “uncle”) with bŭ bŭ (from the word “carrot”).

Xiao Yu Xian Guan, who probably did not know that my son has equated him with Old Carrot in his heart, only stretch his hand out to rub the top of Tang Yue’s head before looking at me and asking, “Are you happy now?”

After that, he smiled a small smiled and answered himself, “You surely must be happy.”

I opened my mouth, but did not know how to reply. In the end, we stood together by the River for a while, looking at the clouds and water; the clouds were very far and the waters, very clear.

After a while, I finally said to him, “You must also be happy.”

He smiled a little smile, and without replying, flew away on a cloud. I thought, he must also be happy. What he has always wanted was ultimate sovereign power, the position of the Heavenly Emperor. Now that he has obtained that position, and the two Realms having sworn never to wage war against each other again would only further strengthen his position as the Heavenly Emperor, he no longer has any worries.

I kept the fishing rods and took Tang Yue’s hand, “Let’s go home.”

Tang Yue looked at me questioningly, “But we haven’t managed to catch a wife yet.”

I pinched his cheek and said, “We fish like Jiang Tai Gong, that is, let he who is willing take the hook [2].”

Tang Yue looked half confused. I bent down and whispered my secret of many years into his ear, “In the past, your father is the one who willingly bit a straight hook and reeled himself in!”

I dragged my son’s hand but before we took two steps, we saw Phoenix rushing urgently towards us on a dark cloud, as if a crisis may erupt with each step. When he saw Tang Yue and myself, his body seemed to tense up. His momentary fragility caused my heart to hurt a little.

That night, he did not sleep well. He tossed and turned twice before he sat up to look at me. After a moment, he asked me, “Is there something you want to tell me?”

“No.”

Phoenix’s eyelid twitched. I rethought carefully, “Really, no.”

He looked angry and asked me brusquely, “Why aren’t you asking me for lingli?”

I was surprised. So the reason why he could not sleep tonight is because I haven’t asked for lingli? But even in the past, I have not asked him everyday for lingli. But seeing his angry face, I thought I should just agree with what he wanted. After thinking for a while, I asked him for 500 years of lingli.

After he transferred the lingli to me, he promptly lay down and fell asleep.

I lay down for half the night and finally realised we both have the same problem. I kept asking him for lingli to prove that he loves me. He waits for me to ask him for lingli to prove that I love him. One goes to commit robbery while taking a bucket of gold with her, the other is willing to always open his purse to be robbed.

Love can sometimes be so simple. The mortals have a common saying which is apropos here: “One is willing to hit and the other is willing to be hit!”

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[1] This is a pun on the Heavenly Emperor’s former title, Xiao Yu Xian Guan, which has the character ‘yu’ meaning fish. Jin Mi still sometimes refers to him as such after he ascended the Heavenly Throne.

[2] 姜太公钓鱼—愿者上钩. This is a very popular idiom refers to Jiang ZiYa, a strategist and advisor who was instrumental in assisting King Wen and King Wu in overthrowing the Shang Dynasty. He is a major character in the Chinese classic, Creation of the Gods or also known as Feng Shen Bang. 

It is said that JZY would fish by hanging a straight hook 3 feet above the water. A fisherman said to him that he would not be able to catch any fish if he used a straight hook. JZY replied that he is not there to catch fish, but to catch a king: “Fish, if you are desperate to live, come and gulp down the hook by yourself.” This story eventually reached the ears of King Wen, who was looking for talented man to serve him. King Wen sent emissaries to invite JZY to join him, but was refused. King Wen finally went in person, bearing many gifts, to meet JZY. After that meeting, JZY agreed to serve King Wen.

The idiom is often used to describe a willing victim or someone who does something regardless of the result. Also, it is also used in the context that in some things, one should not “fish” by crooked means (hence the straight hook rather than the traditional curved hook).

21 thoughts on “Heavy Sweetness, Ash Like Frost (3rd Epilogue)

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  2. Ow! Such a cute ending. I’ve read Xia0yuer’s translations and I really enjoyed it. It’s incomplete but I still hope that one day, she will continue her translations. I used to read many books and novels but since I’ve discovered Bu Bu Jing Xin, I’ve been gradually attracted to chinese novels and dramas. To the point that I am regularly at SSB reading synopsis etc etc. I do not speak english very well so I don’t often comment. I’m better at reading and translating than writing or speaking ^^” Haha well, I’m here to say a big THANK YOU!

    • You’re welcome and thank you for your support. And I think your English’s perfectly fine!

      I have to confess: I became a c-novel convert after BBJX too. 😛

  3. Thanks for translating the epilogue, HuiEr! I’ve listened to that epilogue before and could only understand some parts of it. Most memorable was the moment shared between Night Deity (now Heavenly Emperor) and Jin Mi. To this day, I still think Night Deity is not happy. He may have ascended to the throne but this is only a sort of empty victory. He has won the box which contains the present, but the present (Jin Mi’s love) is absent and actually in the arms of another (Fire Deity). I think it’s one of the saddest moments when he asks Jin Mi if she’s happy, and then wryly, with a tinge of sadness, answers his own question, “Of course, you’re happy.” I know he must have felt glad for her, but at the same time, he must have been saddened by the fact that he could not be the person who could make her happy. And most heart-wrenching was when he simply smiled slightly when she asked if he was happy and then flew away without answering. He wasn’t happy, perhaps content, but not happy. Xu Feng and Jin Mi were happy; Ren Yu was simply content and wistful of what could have been.

  4. Heavy Sweetness, Ash Like Frost I love you and i´m openly confessing that i have become your devoted reader, though i have only read first few summaries of you!

    Thank you very much for your hard work/translating and for giving me a chance to read so sweet and funny story (explanation: lets just say that my english is better than chinese ) 🙂

    • This article was written by hui3r who is no longer blogging. Anyway, thanks for visiting. Decembi is continuing with the translation so you can follow the story.

  5. yes!!at last my hard work pay off,I’ve been googling for a past few days to know the ending…yes!tanks hui3r

  6. i was busy growing up lol 😉

  7. hahahaha…well well well! am all prepared 😉

  8. ah i never read this before ….good part 😀 … thanks hui3r:)

  9. Lov ur translation..nice story

  10. Thank you! Loved the drama thus had me hunting for the book translations!

  11. I have a question: Correct my assumptions if I am wrong, and kindly confirm if I am correct 😅 —Why did Phoenix suddenly ask Jin Mi why she’s not asking for Lingli? Is it because he ‘felt’ or saw Ren Yu’s presence earlier, and he wasn’t able to catch the moment Ren Yu arrived, hence, he was on a dark cloud and in a hurry, according to the translations?
    Dian Xian has a lot of subtle meanings in particular scenes. If I may mention, Decembi, one of the best translators out there, would usually explain also some parts where maybe a lot of us would not immediately understand. I’m hoping, that others had noticed this and would kindly confirm or correct my assumption.
    To elaborate my question-slash-realization—
    Jin Mi mentioned, in the translations here, that she was surprised when Xu Feng (sort of) demanded that she ask for Lingli from him, since she doesn’t always ask for Lingli anyway—so why ‘suddenly’ ask her that?
    I presumed it had something to do with Ren Yu ‘suddenly’ appearing in their realm, and talking with Jin Mi.
    Like, you can’t miss that beat where it kinda felt that he was still worried and jealous both at the same time? And he was in a hurry because he didn’t know what to expect? And he asked Jin Mi about her not asking for Lingli because—he was looking for an ‘assurance’ of her love for him?

    Did i get any of this right? Or I’m just overthinking?
    Because why on earth would he hop on a cloud in great hurry just to check on his wife and son?

    And the next scene shows that he couldn’t sleep.

    So while reading the narrative for the first time, i had this giddy hunch that Xu Feng was feeling jealous and insecure because Jin Mi didn’t tell him what happened in her conversation with Ren Yu.

    But being the proud and careful person that he is, me thinking that he didn’t want to blow what happened out of proportion, me thinking that Dian Xian wanted to show her readers that her male leads are cool now, they’re settled and peaceful now—Xu Feng, instead of demanding what they talked about, or why did Ren Yu stop by, he asked her instead about the damn lingli.

    Am i right?? Am i making sense?

    Like it’s his proud manly way of asking, ‘hey do you still love me? Because i saw your ex drop by and you’re not talking about it, so instead of interrogating you, i just wanna ask if you still love me? Because that’s all i care about. To hell with your ex.’

    You get what im saying?

    Guys, i became a fan of this c-novel just this march of 2020 because of home quarantine and i saw ashes of love in netflix. So i delved into some research online and saw it came from a book!

    Lol in my happiness and inspired state, i even wrote a fanfic because i wanted to give a different twist to the story hahaha!!!

    But i love Dian Xian’s epilogues, like these easter eggs just to show her readers that all of her main characters are in a better place now.

    Peace y’all!! I love this story, too!❤️

  12. I think there should be an epilogue about Phoenix. Phoenix is not that straightforward character as we thought. How did he feels as the golden boy of the heaven realm that all thing he does is celebrated, that he is the most “sexiest man alive”, that he is so accomplished and talented, so powerful as god of war, and the apparent heir of the throne? How did he fall for Jin Mi, a nobody-not too bright- orphan grape elf that perhaps he would not regard as anything but a servant in his palace? Jin Mi seems to appear as a male form most of the time, so her beauty is not a decisive factor? His mercurial mood, anger and threatening to kill her many times is his ways denying his feeling toward her? Once Phoenix knows that he is in love with Jin Mi, he did not learn to know about her likes Night. Does Phoenix knows that Night loves Jin Mi too? Phoenix’s intimacy with JM almost immediately after the engagement announces; why? Did Phoenix has a bling spots about his father philandering and his mother’s cruel, unjust, evil, power grasping murderous intents toward other? In a way, All 3 leads has to learn to grow up and grapple with their journey of love, hate, forgiveness.. Perhaps that is why we all desperately want them to be happy in the end. There are many love stories have been written all over the word, why this story grasp us? Perhaps because they are not perfect, not even Phoenix.
    Even Jin Mi needs an epilogue. How does she feels, regardless of the unfeeling pill, about being helpless-defenseless as an orphan; born of the sky and raise by the sky? Her thoughts toward her mother? her joyce of having her father? the constant hate that permeated the floral realm against the Phoenix’s parents?, being bullied by more powerful gods, being look down-patronizing by Phoenix and Sui He and others…
    There are so many loose ends or characterization that we do not yet know about these 3 main leads, although Night character is more developed. And Night is not evil or psychopath. I heard a fan wrote an epilogue about his longing, waiting for Jin Mi at their first encounter.
    Anyway, I laugh at my self; at least I did not watch the drama 50 times or even 15 times likes others. I think the author needs to write more epilogue and perhaps a season 2 or a remake of this drama without annoying secondary/unnecessary side stories.
    Thank you for all the translation.

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