Fangirling Chinese Novels

Silent Separation (何以笙箫默) – Gu Man (Chapter 3)



Oh no, another long chapter, which is even longer than the last chapter:( I can’t wait to let lidge take over the translation. I plan to post this chapter earlier but lidge was on strike:P This chapter has a lot of interactions between Yi Chen and Mo Sheng plus some cute reminiscences of their time in university so you must not miss it.

Doesn’t Yi Chen look dashing and cool in the picture above? It is an often used picture of him. It is a free postcard given with the 7th anniversary of the deluxe edition of the novel which I bought:) According to decembi, the wording on the postcard is: “If in this world there was once such a person who had appeared, all others will become a compromise. I am not willing to compromise.”  This is her favourite quote from this novel.

Chapter 3: Near (translated by peanuts and edited by lidge)

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0.31: What was harder than for Hua Xian Zi wanting to become a lady ah?

“Ah Sheng, is this looking good or that one is better? Or else, how about this?” Hua Xian Zi was comparing clothes in the fashion store and asking Mo Sheng, her adviser, who was dragged here by her chain of calls early in the morning.

“Ah, this one.”

“That is what I wore here today.” Hua Xian Zi’s face darkened by half, “Ah Sheng, are you fully awake yet, so absent-minded and distracted early in the morning?”

“Uh ……” Mo Sheng laughed with a guilty conscience, quickly changed the topic and said seriously: “Xiao Hong, clothing is not the most critical factor for you to be a lady.”

“Then, what is?”

“Manners ah.” Mo Sheng gave an example, “For instant, if people ask what kind of music you like to listen to, you must never say heavy metal rock.”

“I do not listen to rock music.” Hua Xian Zi said happily: “My favorite is Richie Ren and Ah Niu‘s ‘Lang Hua Yi Duo Duo‘.”

This time, it was Mo Sheng’s face darkening. The images of three men with silly grins, wearing flower shorts, holding a guitar and chasing bikini clad women on the beach emerged in her mind. There was also Hua Xian Xi’s excited voice singing: “In particular, ‘beautiful girl becomes an old woman,’ this line directly expresses my hope for the future ……”

” ……Do not ever discuss music together.” Mo Sheng said firmly, “Maybe talk about movies? Aren‘t you going to a movie with him tonight? This can also display the taste and temperament of a lady.”

“Movie ah?” Hua Xian Zi’s eyes lit up, “I like ‘Journey to the West – A Chinese Odyssey‘. Luo Jia Ying looks very handsome, and his speech is very philosophical, especially the sentence ‘humans are born from parents, devils are born from demons’, which embodies ethics, love, medicine and religion. It is simply ‘the best interpretation of all beings are equal’……”

” ……Xiao Hong.” Mo Sheng said with difficulty, “I think, it is best you do not say anything tonight.”

Finally, Hua Xian Zi let her off, which was already two o’clock in the afternoon. Mo Sheng went home to sleep. When she woke up, the sky was already all dark and looking at the clock on the wall, it was already half past seven.

She was very hungry, but when she opened the refrigerator, there was nothing to eat. Mo Sheng picked up her purse and keys, ready to go to the supermarket.

Mo Sheng walked down the stairs, through the flowerbed, her footstep abruptly came to a stop, and she lifted her eyes.

Under the dim lights opposite the road, he stood there. The expression in his eyes through the fog-filled night, silently fixated on her.

Yi Chen!

2.38: He stood at a distance, in no hurry to approach her. Today, he was wearing casual clothing, a simple shirt and pants, yet he could still look rather distinguished. In the past, she had often looked infatuated at him and couldn’t help but asked: “Yi Chen, why do you look good in whatever you wear ah?” In reply, Yi Chen would give her an unhappy glare.

The past! The past again! Zhao Mo Sheng, have some pride! You should not think of it anymore!

Yi Chen stubbed out his cigarette and walked toward her.

“Can you accompany me for a walk?”

“…… Okay.”

They walked in silence for a while, yet Yi Chen still had no intention to say anything. Thus, Mo Sheng could not help but asked: “Where are we going?”

“We have arrived.”

The bus stop? They are going to take the bus ah?

“Do you have coins?”

“Yes, I do.” Mo Sheng dug out a few coins from her purse and spread them out in her hand.

“Give me one.” Yi Chen took a coin from her hand, his fingers unintentionally touched her palm.

Mo Sheng was stunned and quickly withdrew her hand, but he seemed to feel nothing. He stood next to her, watching the bus heading towards them.

“Go up the bus ah.”

She did not have time to ask anything so just followed him into the bus. Of course, the public bus was very crowded on Saturday so they were separated by two or three people in between them. She had difficulty breathing and moving. The bus stopped after eight or nine stops. Suddenly, Yi Chen held out his hand and pulled her out of the bus. Then after getting down from the bus, he immediately released her hand and walked alone in front.

Mo Sheng looked around the unfamiliar landscape, lined with tall buildings, “Where is here?”

Yi Chen stopped walking and turned around. “Don’t you recognize?”

Should she recognize? A city was so big, and she had not been to all the places ah. But why would he look so displeased as if she had committed a heinous crime?

Looking at her apparently bewildered expression, the emotions showing in Yi Chen’s eyes gradually faded.

“Forget it!”

He coldly spit out the two words, swiftly turned back and quickened his pace.

Mo Sheng failed to understand the reason why until the quaint university gate appeared before her eyes.

Here, is actually C University?

Then this street, she looked at the bustling street she had just passed by a moment ago in shock, it was Lao Bei street?

The Lao Bei street where Yi Chen and her had walked past countless times?

How could it be!

Where was that downright lively night market? What about those hawkers shouting? Where have the wide variety of cheap and delicious snack stalls on both sides of the street gone?

“After returning from overseas, haven’t you come here for a look?” Yi Chen’s mood became more calm, and he asked in a soft voice.

“No, I ……” not that I didn’t want to come, but …… “have been too busy with work.” She mumbled because such reason, even to herself, felt ridiculous.

Yi Chen glanced at her and said softly: “You don‘t need to say anything, I understand.”

What did he understand? She did not understand.

They walked into C University, this more than hundred years old university did not change much. Mo Sheng was dazzled and felt like she was walking in an old dream. Those big trees, those dormitories which seemed rather old, those laughing students who walked past her …… a kind of melancholy and forlorn feeling swelled in her chest. She had gone away for so long, is it possible to reclaim what had been lost?

5.31: “Hey!” Mo Sheng pointed at a small grocery shop at the corner of the road, “The shop is still here. I wonder if the shop is still run by that old couple.”

“No.” Yi Chen said, “The shop has changed owner before I even graduate.”

“Oh.” Mo Sheng replied softly, looked up with a smile and said, “I will go and buy something to eat since I’m starving.”

The new owner of the small shop was a young woman. While looking after her child, she served them. Mo Sheng bought bread and a can of coke. Yi Chen also bought a can of beer and paid for everything. She remembered they used to have frequent arguments over who should pay. At that time, she was too young to know about a man’s pride and dignity. Being with her, Yi Chen should be very tired ah!

“When did you start to drink?” Initially, she simply asked only but after saying it, she recalled last night’s intense kiss with alcohol smell so Mo Sheng uneasily looked down to avoid looking at him.

“These past few years.” He was silent for a long while, then said indifferently.

Yes ah, these past few years.

“Let us find a place to sit down la.”

At eight o’clock plus, the field was still full of people who were exercising, mostly young students, but there were also some elderly professors having a walk around.

They sat at the side of the field, and Mo Sheng smilingly said: “I have my most painful memories on this field.”

Yi Chen gave a rare, slight smile. “Eight hundred meters.”

“Yes ah.” Mo Sheng admitted in embarrassment, “My best result in eight hundred meters is four minutes and ten seconds. I still remember at that time you said in disbelief …… ”

Suddenly, Yi Chen stopped to stare at her and asked, “What did I say?”

“You said: Zhao Mo Sheng, you run so slowly, how did you manage to catch me?”

“…… Hey, is that Professor Zhou from your faculty?” Mo Sheng pointed at the old man who was strolling nearby.

Yi Chen turned around to look, nodded his head and stood up, “I will go and say hi.”

Mo Sheng watched him walk over. When Professor Zhou saw him, he looked very happy, said a few words with him and approvingly patted him on the shoulder.

This old professor’s hair was getting less and less la!

How she would know this famous professor of the Law Faculty was simply because of her relationship with Yi Chen.

At that time, Yi Chen was busy with university and tutoring work so even as his girlfriend, she also did not manage to see him often. In order to spend more time with him, when she did not have lessons, she will attend his classes. From beginning to end, she attended this Professor Zhou’s criminal law lectures for an entire semester. However, even now she was still unclear about the most basic principles of “presumption of innocence” in criminal law. Not like Yi Chen, who was dragged by her to attend only a few of her advanced mathematics classes, yet tutored her for the semester’s final exam.

She did not know what Yi Chen said, but Professor Zhou unexpectedly looked in her direction and smilingly nodded his head as greeting before walking away.

When Yi Chen came back, Mo Sheng curiously asked: “What did you say to him?”

“I said I’ve come back with a friend to look around.” Yi Chen glanced at her oddly, “Professor Zhou can still remember you.”

“Really?” Mo Sheng mumbled: “I probably left a deep impression on him.”

She was the butt of a joke in this professor’s class before.

During class, Professor Zhou never looked at the attendance rollbook so he simply pointed randomly when asking people to answer his questions. Once, Mo Sheng was unfortunately picked by him. She could still remember that his question was “In your opinion, how should A, B, C and D, these four people, be sentenced?”

She was confused, silently thought who were these four people, what crime did they commit, how should they be punished? She had not listened to the professor’s lecture. Desperate, she pulled at Yi Chen’s shirt under the table for help, but he replied harshly: “I haven’t heard anything.”

Oh! Yes, they quarreled recently so Yi Chen was still angry with her. But seeing that she was dying also didn’t rescue her, he was just being too petty la.

8.21: As a result of her anxiety, she actually said: “Put all of them in jail.”

After a few seconds of silence throughout the classroom, everyone burst into laughter. The guys in the front shouted: “Professor, she is not from our faculty.”

“Oh?” Professor Zhou was touched and said: “Student, are you very interested in the criminal law I teach?”

The students burst into laughter again and rowdily shouted: “Professor, she followed her boyfriend here!”

The old man was very open-minded so he went so far as to question closely with great interest: “She is whose girlfriend?” The tone of his voice was amused.

Yi Chen resigned to fate and stood up, feeling humiliated. “Mine.”

Naturally, Professor Zhou knew He Yi Chen. Hence, this old man with a sense of humor earnestly said to him: “Student He, an educated family is very important, only one person being educated is not enough. It would not be good if the girlfriend of a gifted student in the Faculty of Law does not know anything about laws, right? This is also rather embarrassing for us lawyers, ah.”

Mo Sheng could still remember the sounds of laughter that broke out in the classroom at that time.

Yi Chen chuckled: “Indeed, a deep impression.”

Mo Sheng foolishly stared at him, was he really laughing? Finally, he no longer put on a cold face and treating her like a stranger?

“Well …… ” She abruptly turned away to conceal her emotions, no longer looking at him and unnaturally said: “Who told you to see me in trouble yet did nothing!”

She was still bearing a grudge on this incident? Yi Chen was experiencing mixed feelings and was silent. He really did not hear anything ah. She thought he was that calm and rational to the point where he could be having a cold war with her and still concentrate on his lectures?

If he could be calm and rational enough, he would not be standing here together with her now.

Yi Chen gloomily sighed, “It is getting late, I will send you back.”

They still took the bus. When they reached the downstairs of Mo Sheng‘s home, she stopped walking and said: “I am home.”

“Yes.” He also stopped walking.

“Then, good-bye.”


Mo Sheng took two steps before turning back. He was still standing under the streetlight. “You?”

His eyes looked past her into the far distant, as if he wanted to say something but did not. The two of them were silent. He paused for a long while before saying: “I’m sorry about yesterday.”

“…… It is nothing.” Mo Sheng felt rather uncomfortable and uneasily said, “You were drunk yesterday.”

“Really?” Yi Chen paused before continuing, his voice slightly mocking. Suddenly, he lowered his head, and his cold lips touched hers but left right away. He looked at her with his deep and puzzling eyes and whispered: “Mo Sheng, I’m always clear-headed.”


That’s right, he’s always clear-headed, looking at himself sinking.

10.07: “You look distracted today.” When they were discussing a difficult case, Xiang Heng suddenly blurted out.

Yi Chen calmly lifted his eyes to look at him: “I think my proposal is quite good.”

“It is quite good.” Not just quite good, more like great, “But you still look distracted.”

“Okay.” Yi Chen put down the pen in his hand, “What do you want to ask?”

Xiang Heng started to laugh as it was rare to see him losing his cool like this, “Our university junior, Zhao has come back?”

Yi Chen raised his eyebrows. “How do you know?” Had he been acting so obvious? Yi Chen’s face blushed slightly then paled.

“That day, I saw her downstairs.” Xiang Heng solved his doubts, “She seems …… to have changed a lot.”

Yes, a lot. Yi Chen stopped talking.

At this time, Lao Yuan pushed open the door and shouted: “Hey, the people from Lian He is treating dinner today so both of you must go with me.”


Lian He Law Firm and Yuan Xiang He were two of the big four law firms in A city. Although they opposed each other with equal harshness in court, they still had quite a good relationship privately. This time, Lao Yuan helped them a little so they arranged a banquet in De Yue Lou as a way to thank him.

Speaking of which, those people from Lian He actually had bad intentions. Who did not know the rose from Lian He, Pi Li, was very interested in He Yi Chen from Yuan Xiang He? By getting them together, it was obvious they wanted to see a good show. Xu Pi Li specialized in attack whereas Yi Chen’s defense had always been watertight. Thus, one can infer the dinner tonight would surely be very lively and fascinating. Lao Yuan already started to look forward to it.

11.21: De Yue Lou was located in the most bustling part of the city. When darkness fell, the city lit up surrounded in bright lights. After three rounds of drinks, Lao Yuan and several lawyers from Lian He who were good in talking big, making jokes and noises, began to become rowdy. Xiang Heng sat by the windows. While listening to them chatting idly with his ears, his eyes unconsciously glanced out the windows.

The neon lights in the city at night. On the wide road, a place buzzing with activity and people streaming past like running water.

Wait, that was ……

“Lao Xiang, you are not talking so what are you looking at?” Lawyer Li turned his head and followed his line of vision to look downward. On the opposite side of the main street, there was a woman holding a camera in her hands taking pictures. Her hair was neither long nor short, and she was wearing a loose light blue shirt and jeans. There were 2 more cameras on her neck.

“Is she the type you like?” Lawyer Li was interested to know and asked. He could not see her face, but she seemed like a student.

“That is not my type,” Xiang Heng replied, but his eyes turned to the direction of Yi Chen and Pi Li. Pi Li sat close to Yi Chen and whispered something, not sure what Yi Chen’s reply was, but she covered her mouth hiding a smile, her eyes never leaving Yi Chen.

“If she can be included …… that can be fun la!” Xiang Heng thought suddenly.

“Yi Chen.” Xiang Heng tried to attract his attention, then pointed out the window.

Not only He Yi Chen, but everyone also looked out the windows.

“What is it?” Someone asked.

With only one glance, Yi Chen spotted Zhao Mo Sheng, who was taking camera angles in the crowd. He put down his wine glass right away. “I’m going out for a while.”

Except Xiang Heng who was calm and composed, the rest of the people were lining up against the windows. He Yi Chen’s tall figure quickly crossed the street and stopped a few steps behind an unfamiliar woman, but he was just quietly watching and did not disturb her. The woman seemed unaware of his presence until she turned around after taking some pictures – Ah! Such a pity! Her back was facing them so they could not see her facial expression. Then both of them said a few words.

Then ……

Everyone’s jaws almost fell off – He Yi Chen! He, he, he……

13.00: He actually forcefully grabbed her hand?

He Yi Chen! The He Yi Chen who had always been cool towards women surprisingly took such drastic action, how could it be!

Everyone also tacitly understood and very sympathetically looked at the only woman present, beautiful woman Xu whose face was turning gloomy.

It was thought He Yi Chen treated women coldly because of his cold and detached personality. However, it appears that if needed, he can act as intensely as anyone.

This is really too much of a blow against the female self-esteem!

Although he was always annoyed by Xu Pi Li‘s sharp tongue, after all they still came from the same firm so inevitably there will be colleague camaraderie. A fat lawyer Zhang made discreet inquiries about the enemy. “Lao Xiang, who is she?”

Xiang Heng’s expression was somewhat enigmatic, “Why do you ask me? You should be asking Yi Chen.”

Lawyer Zhang politely declined, “I dare not count on getting any information from He Yi Chen’s mouth.”

Xiang Heng smiled and said: “His coat is still here so he will need to come back to take it.”

A moment later, Yi Chen really came back and very apologetically said: “Lao Li, I have something so I need to go first.” Lao Li was considered the host of tonight’s dinner.

Before Lao Li could say anything, Xiang Heng said something first: “You leaving like this is rather sudden and not giving face to the host so why not ask Zhao Mo Sheng to come and join us since I have not seen her for a few years.” He turned around and asked Lao Li: “Do you mind having an additional person?”

Lao Li nodded his head repeatedly: “Can bring family members, can bring family members.”

Yi Chen pondered.

Xu Pi Li said with a bit of anger: “Lawyer He has a girlfriend but why the need for secrecy, is it so shameful meh?”

Mo Sheng was still foolishly in a daze on the sidewalk on the other side of the road, thinking about what sort of relationship Yi Chen and her had since they were not like friends, yet they were also not like lovers …… Before she could figure out what they were, her phone rang. When she picked up, it was Yi Chen.

“I cannot leave……”

Oh, that is good, Mo Sheng was relieved.

“…… You come over la!”

14.34: He hung up the phone. Mo Sheng did not even have the chance to discuss it with him. She looked at De Yue Lou across the road, packed her things and crossed the road.

0.31: Yi Chen was waiting for her at the door. Mo Sheng hesitated and said: “Is it appropriate for me to go in ah?”

Yi Chen acted coolly: “It is all right, just a few peers.”

However, she should appear in what capacity ah?

She swallowed back that sentence. These days, Yi Chen occasionally looked for her but will also deliberately keep his distance. However, such contacts have already made her uneasy.

It should not be like this, she should stay farther away from him ……

When they got nearer, that group of people rudely sized Mo Sheng up and down. She looked pretty good and her clothes very casual but the hair a bit short and lacked a little charm. Compare to those women around Yi Chen, she was average.

Xiang Heng was the first to greet her.

“Zhao Mo Sheng, why come back home so fast?” His smile and gentle words actually were slightly thorny, “I thought you wanted to make Yi Chen painstakingly guard the cold cave for 18 years.” (an allusion to Yang Guo waiting for the Little Dragon maiden in Return of the Condor Heroes)

Indeed, a dagger hidden in smiles, a needle concealed in silk floss (friendly manner belying hypocritical intention). What else could Mo Sheng say but the stereotyped and repetitive phase, “Senior Xiang, long time no see.”

“I dare not accept to be called senior, but really long time.” Xiang Heng smiled yet not a smile.

Yi Chen gave a brief introduction. Mo Sheng had just sat down, but that beautiful female lawyer already rudely opened fire at her.

“Miss Zhao, I heard He Yi Chen is well-known for being hard to get so what method did you use to get him into your hands?”

Not hearsay, but her own experience la. The people on the dinner table turned quiet.

After hearing that, Xiang Heng nearly spit out his tea, this Xu Pi Li!

In fact, she was not malicious, just accustomed to being straightforward. This was because she often mixed with a group of men so she spoke in such manner. Since she even dared to scold a judge in court as poor quality and lacked common sense, don’t expect her to be mild and tactful. Today, this kind of questioning could be considered polite. Merely, Zhao Mo Sheng had not seen this kind of questioning so it made her uncomfortable.

He was about to speak out to help her but saw He Yi Chen looking indifferent like a spectator so he could not be bothered. Other people’s girlfriend, other people also did not feel distressed so why should he be nosy to meddle in other people’s business?

Mo Sheng was stunned, before quickly calming down. Seeing everyone was not talking, she could not help feeling sorry because she thought that her presence spoiled the atmosphere. How would she know these people purely wanted to see a good show, waiting excitedly with bated breath……

Thus, she half-jokingly said:

2.32: “Actually, Yi Chen is very easy to chase.” She summed up her previous experience, “The crucial point is you need to have a thick skin to shamelessly pester him. First try crying, then try screaming and lastly threaten to kill oneself, guarantee he will hold up his hands to surrender.”

Everyone looked incredulously at Yi Chen. The great lawyer He actually likes this kind of style?

Xu Pi Li disapprovingly glared at her: “Don’t you feel that by doing that, there is no women’s dignity?”

“Uh …… At that time, I did not think that far.” Mo Sheng smiled.

“The man you managed to get through this kind of shameless method, how much feelings will he have for you? Without spiritual understanding, he inevitably will get bored of you one day, then abandon you.” Xu Pi Li was aggressive.

“Ah!” Lao Yuan, who had not been talking suddenly exclaimed, interrupting Xu Pi Li’s offensive. He stared excitedly at Mo Sheng, “I remember now. You’re the woman who dumped Yi Chen to go to America, right?”

Ah?! Except Xiang Heng and Yi Chen, the rest of the people looked at Zhao Mo Sheng in disbelief. She dumped He Yi Chen?

Mo Sheng was also dumbfounded. She dumped Yi Chen? What? Why say something like that? But also, why the expression in the eyes of this tall and sturdy big guy seemed like …… worship?

“No, I did not ……”

“You still want to deny?” Lao Yuan adopted a roundabout tactic. “Have you been to America?”

“…… Yes.”

“Are you his previous girlfriend?”

“…… Yes.”

“There you are.” Lao Yuan’s bear paw slammed on the wooden table. “The evidence is clear. Guilty as charged!”

Mo Sheng was dumbstruck. Why all the current lawyers treat human life as if it were not worth a straw?

She was about to explain but was pulled up by Yi Chen. “Excuse me, we will go first.”

Nobody stopped them, but they just stared and watched them walk away.

Once they left the front doors of De Yue Lou, the cold wind outside blew and finally her extremely confused train of thoughts started to clear a little. Watching that person walking in front, she could not help but asked: “Yi Chen, why didn’t you say something?”

“What to say?”

“They seem to think …… I broke up with you, but obviously that was not the case. Why didn’t you explain?” How could the proud and arrogant He Yi Chen tolerate such misunderstanding!

4.20: “How to explain?” Yi Chen’s stopped walking. In that moment, under the gloomy streetlight, she thought this arrogant man seemed so lonely. His hoarse voice sounded exceptionally clear in the windy night, “Even I think that too.”


49 thoughts on “Silent Separation (何以笙箫默) – Gu Man (Chapter 3)

  1. Kyaaa chapter out. Thanks.
    Now… I want to know more and more what lead to the misunderstanding. >_< Everyone put the blame on her and dont give a chance to clarification. Maybe she was wrong for running away. No, she was wrong. But…Ahhh.
    And his sister, she have something into this mess?

    • Glad you like it. The sister is why Mo Sheng ran away. As for why Yi Chen was hostile towards her, it will be revealed in the next chapter:P I am going to divide another super long chapter into two parts so update may be faster:)

  2. Ahh i almost forgot. Yeah handsome. Yi Chen *-* If you aren’t broke… Pretty fune the “Put all of them in jail.” he he he. *-*

  3. Ahhhhh another good chapter! Thank You!! I want more and so desperately want to know the misunderstanding between them. Also I most definitely like the scenario of cold/mean guy towards the girl and one woman man devotion.

    • I still need to translate Shan Shan so you’ve to wait:P Yi Chen is cold but not really mean, just love sick, lol. Yah, his devotion won him many novel fans.

    • I agree with peanuts. I don’t think He Yi Chen is cold. He is innately reserved but he definitely can be playful and cheerful as evidenced by the flashbacks of his past interactions with Zhao Mo Sheng 7 years ago. I think she brings out the playful side of him, which is probably why he fell in love with her. Granted, the novel mentions that she is pretty, but he has many choices. Therefore, what really attracts him is her vibrance. With her, he is happy. SHE makes him happy and makes him want to laugh. Didn’t he write that she was his sunshine on the back of her photo that he carried around with him for 7 years?

      Then, her sudden disappearance from his life leaves him scarred. When she reappears in his life, a part of him wants to desperately hold onto her tightly forever, but another part of him is still angry and terribly afraid that she will once again vanish for a second time, and he doesn’t know if he can survive another heartbreak. Thus, he holds her at a distance, thereby explaining the “cold, standoffish” attitude. Quite honestly, I don’t think Mo Sheng realizes how much she hurt him. She’s definitely a bit dense.

      Thanks for continuing the translation, peanuts!

      • Hey, did you read my translation properly:P? According to Xiang Heng, Mo Sheng is only average and indeed Yi Chen have plenty of prettier choices eg that lawyer Xu Pi Li, his neighbour who quarrelled with Hua Xian Zi, his sister Yi Mei, etc.

        I think Mo Sheng didn’t realize the extend of his hurt is bcos she is also hurting and she can’t believe someone as good as Yi Chen will carry a torch for her for so many yrs.

        You are welcome, Mel. My translation better than the audio book, right, lol?

        • I don’t think Mo Sheng is average looking. Xiang Heng says Mo Sheng is pretty but He Yi Chen has other women interested in him who are a lot more beautiful. Didn’t Hua Xian Zi want Mo Sheng to put on “ugly” makeup to hide her (Mo Sheng’s) pretty face so that the guys would like Hua Xian Zi?

      • Ok, Mo Sheng is pretty but not very pretty, satisfied, lol? Gu Man is a tortise so she’ll take a long time to complete Blazing Sunlight. According to lidge, both guys are equally good & she wanna commit bigamy by marrying both, lol.

  4. Thanks for the translation! It’s so fun to read this in English. Oh, coincidentally, I emailed you about the postcard translations just now! Haha

    • Oh, I just read decembi’s translation of the postcard. Thanks! What a truly romantic and touching quote from He Yi Chen! I guess for every person, there is only one true sunshine. For He Yi Chen, that sunshine is Zhao Mo Sheng. However, I do feel very sad for Ying Hui. He is a true gentleman who does not sabotage the happiness of the woman he loves in order to keep her by his side. Too bad there aren’t two Zhao Mo Shengs.

  5. thank you very much for the translation!:))))

  6. This is so goooooooooooooooooood!!! Wahahaha I really like Yi Chen and how he can’t help but keep seeking Mo Sheng out even though he was hurt by her before. This misunderstanding ahhhhhhhh Thanks for translation!

  7. *.* ❤ ah i am new to all of this, and i am not sure if this comment will actually post, but i really needed to try and post a reply…thank u so much for translating~ tbh, until last night i had no idea china had a novel culture like this (im super ignorant hahaha 😛 )…but this is so interesting, i cant wait for the next chapter to be translated~ now im searching around like crazy, trying to find out as much as possible about cnovels, for some1 from europe this is all so new and fascinating…i really cant wait to see what happens to the couple kyaaaa *.* also i have a feeling ill be falling for lawyer he big time kekeke

    ah, i need to ask sth…my goal is to read one cnovel in chinese by the end of the year, tho i might read an eng version first to make it easier…how difficult r these books to read, what do u think r some of the easiest language-wise (but also interesting)? thank u so much for translating this, and giving us the oportunity to enjoy it~

    • Welcome to the fascinating and diverse world of Cnovels:) If you need more info on cnovels, you can visit my book bar which you’ll find links to English translations, If you’ve any question, feel free to ask me.

      Before I can answer your question, I need to know your background in Chinese first. Are you from a Chinese or Vietnamese background? Have you been studying Chinese? How much Chinese can you read? Can you understand spoken Chinese? I cannot read Chinese but I am Chinese and can speak & understand Chinese so I can get google translate to read to me to do my translations.

      If you are new to the language, it is best you start with modern novels as ancient novels are written in something like Shakespeare language. Two of my translations, Come & Eat Shan Shan and Silent Separation are line by line translations of the original novels. They are written in fairly simple Chinese. Thus, you can try reading the Chinese version and if you are stuck, you can check the English translation. The Chinese ebook links for the 2 novels can be found in my book bar.

      • omg thx~ actually im caucasian, styding chinese on my own…actually im still a beginner, but i have started reading mangas with a help of dictionary (the transition from simplified to traditional is a bit of a shock, but ive decided to start using traditional when writing stuff)…hmm, i really need to learn the vocab, and i am practicing hard every day, so i can achieve my goals lol~ i will start reading a bit at a time, while adding new words, and hopefully it will become much easier as i go…thank u so much for ur suggestions, and also ive checked the book bar and loved it, already started a second book too~ again, thank u so much for translating ❤

        • Wow, you’ve such great determination to study Chinese on your own. I am Chinese yet I can’t be bother to study Chinese bcos it is such a difficult language:( May I know why are you so keen on studying Chinese?

          Since you are still a beginner, manga is a good place to start as there are less words & more pictures:P But, how do you copy & paste the words onto the online dictionary to check? Traditional Chinese is harder than simplified Chinese so I’ll advise you to just concentrate on simplified since China is using simplified.

          Beside reading novels, you can try listening to audio books. Have the Chinese ebook in front of you and listen to the audio book at the same time so you’ll know how to pronounce those words. Also, some audio books are very entertaining. You can start with Silent Separation audio book although the quality is just average. But don’t listen to radio drama as they are summarised so you’ll get lost and confused.

          Also, you can try watchng C-drama with Chinese and English subtitles to make your learning experience more interesting. The book bar has some drama links which are adapted from novels. Or you can go to for more drama choices with English subs. My recommendation is the ancient drama Bu Bu Jing Xin but do prepare a hanky. For modern, you can try Sealed With a Kiss.

          Which 2nd book have you started?

        • wah my reply dissapeared:O ah, i love ur advice, tho the audio book i found, the woman talks fast, i cant catch up TT_TT so im trying to read first, without dictionary or anything to make it easier…omg i actually understood what was going on, tho there were lots of parts where i und it as a whole but not the details, and the parts i was just lost -_- like the dad part, and some of her reasoning (i was like wtf r u crazy woman, i mean look at him)…blah, overall i only got the basic stuff, i cant wait for ur translation~ ive stopped at the random aiya part, i need to gather my energy again keke~

          as for the characters, i just switch my phone keyboard to chinese, hand-writing-input-thingy~ and omg its so much easier to learn the trad version once i know the word, than learning a new word all together…i really want to be able to use both types…and i really really really love chinese language, i tried to stop once and failed big time, so i guess its meant to be~

          ive started reading da mo yao, its so adicting, somehow, the luck was on my side when picking these two kekeke~

          • Oh, sorry to hear that your comment disappeared but I don’t know why. Thus, in future best for you to save a copy just in case it’ll happen again. When I first began to listen to audiobook, I also had problem with the speed but once you get used to it, you’ll be able to follow. The 1st time is always the most difficult:) I am currently busy working on chapter 4 translation. Haha, nearly everyone like the novel bcos of Yi Chen & not Mo Sheng.

            Da Mo Yao was my 1st English translated novel. Thereafter I fell in love with Cnovel & was on the way of no return, lol. A few people I know online also started with that book. I think koalaplayground summarised it so you may also want to check out the alternative translation as well as the audiobook. It has been filmed into a drama & should be released this yr. The author is very popular in China and also wrote Bu Bu Jing Xin which I recommended you to watch. Yun Zhong Ge (Songs in the Cloud) is also a good book but rather sad:( Ancient novels are harder to read & understand but more interesting for foreigners as there are martial arts and Chinese history.

        • ah it turned out i forgot to post it b4 exiting, thats y it dissapeared -_-im actually reading dmy on the koala site, is the translation ok there, u got me worried hehe…ive actually been searching for a next book, but im scared of crying…i will listen to ur advice tho, im really liking how tong hua wrote this book, so i will follow with those~ ah for a person who (almost) always hated history classes, im really liking chinese history stuff…like im watching the three kingdoms and dying, its so amazing…hmm is there sth i can like read or watch to get some basic knowledge of chinese hystory? we never learned about it here, and now im getting all curious…

          hmm i think mo sheng is pretty relatable…like i can imagine myself in her shoes, theres sth really plain about her, well maybe thats a wrong word, but i like that about her character…as for her past self, im still strugling to find that connection, tho i guess as the book progresses, it will settle…but yi cheng…like omg, im not sure if thats just my imagination (like this is only the begining of the book, so i might well be seeing stuff that rnt there), but theres just sth idunno about him…like, 7 years later, and u can feel his feelings go deep, i meen wow…meanwhile, if i und well, she even got 结婚-ed and all, i mean she likes him, u can tell, but he omg…i deff und y every1 likes him, hes really amazing, and i love that he fell in love with some1 so relatable, it makes me a bit jealous of a book character lol 😀 uh i keep checking every few hours, cant wait to see what happens next~

  8. Mrs Koala’s translations are very good but has line by line translations so you can learn your Chinese better but it is incomplete. Da Mo Yau has happy ending if you ship the right guy, lol. I recommended you Bu Bu Jing Xin (Scarlet Heart) a drama based on a book by Tong Hua. It has excellent English subtitles and is sort of a classic with most overseas Chinese. My Caucasian friends also like it. It is loosely based on part of the Manchu dynasty history. It has a sad ending but the beginning is rather funny. Just google it & you’ll find heaps of info.

    I am glad you like Silent Separation so much but I am sorry to tell you I am still doing the translation so you’ve to be very patient. Then I’ve to get my editor lidge to look through it bcos as I told you b4 I can’t read Chinese so there are some words I don’t understand and need her to fill in for me. Actually my mother’s tongue is Cantonese but the novel is written in Mandarin. Thus, the earliest it can be posted will be Tue or Wed, Asia time zone. This book is very popular in China bcos most of the girls love Yi Chen. He has been voted in many online polls as the most loved leading man in a novel.

    • ah sorry for not replying…like u predicted, i got addicted to bu bu jing xin, but since im using my phone, sometimes it bugs a little, so im only at ep 14…omg, its so good, its so hard not being able to dramathon it all at once…ive finished the first volume of da mo yao, and i even got a friend to read it too (shes already ahead of me, im so slow -_-)…right now i just wish i could read faster hahaha…

      omg wait so u can speak both cantonese and mandarin?? thats amazing, mandarin is already very hard, and ive heard cantonese is even harder, actually i feel a bit jealous lol~

      • Haha, no worries, I can understand the feelings. I stumbled upon BBJX when I was on holidays in China. Thereafter I camp around the tv every night to catch it. After I returned home, I searched all over the net to watch & read abt it like a junkie, lol. Chinese drama & novels are really bad for health, lol. If you don’t understand anything or need recommendation, you can ask me:) BBJX the drama follows the book very closely. You need hanky for the second half of the drama.

        I can speak Cantonese fluently but I can’t really speak Mandarin. Actually both of them are rather similar but different in sound. Cantonese is more harsh & fast. Haha, no need to be jealous bcos my parents are Chinese & I grew up watching Cantonese drama at home. You may know more Chinese words than me so I should be jealous, lol.

        • actually i dont, my vocab is still small…but, i promised myself to work really hard on it (tho ive already skipped a few days -_-)…omg, holidays in china *.*

          ah good thing im moving at super-slow-snail-spead, because im not sure about the next book…ive read some comments about yun zhong ge, and apparently its extremely sad…i can deal with sad, but not extremely, at least not atm lol, and the comments were all O.O…so i dont know what to chose now -_- i thought about the lets eat book, but i cant even handle food drama, i start craving for the foods ive never even tasted *Q* so can u recommend me sth, pls *blinkblink* uh i guess im a super needy person always asking for stuff, but thank u for answering~ ah i love top lists, but most of the books rnt translated, ill deff read an original by the end of the year *super-motivation-mode-on*

          • Yun Zhong Ge is a good book but very sad. Anyway you need a break from Tong Hua so I’ll recommend you to visit hamster blog & read 3 Lives 3 Worlds 10 Miles of Peach Blossoms which is number 5 on the top 75 book list. It is a fantasy/mythical novel with happy ending. Nearly all readers love that novel. Hamster is currently translating the sequel called The Pillow Book rank no. 19 on the top 75 list.

            Don’t take the top 75 list seriously as I find some of the books listed are not nice. Probably bcos they are not my cup of tea. Also, don’t worry the lets eat book will make you hungry bcos it is not really abt food. It is abt a naughty boss who tortures her staff by making her eat her meals with him, lol. It is a silly & funny book, therapy book after reading a sad novel:P

  9. omg this 3-3-10 book is unlike anything i have ever read…i only took a peak, this genre is really sth new to me, i like it~

    • I told you b4, C-novel world is a lot more diverse and interesting compared to English novel world. Enjoy yourself. Hamster is very nice so you can ask her if you don’t understand anything of that book as it’ll be a whole new world for you:)

  10. its really sweet that they sneak in to each other lecture. 🙂

    “No, I did not ……”
    “You still want to deny?” Lao Yuan adopted a roundabout tactic. “Have you been to America?”
    “…… Yes.”
    “Are you his previous girlfriend?”
    “…… Yes.”
    “There you are.” Lao Yuan’s bear paw slammed on the wooden table. “The evidence is clear. Guilty as charged!”

    i think Yichen friend being too harsh for her, i imagine how awkward for her at that situation, seems like they are ‘punish’ her for ‘dumping’ Yichen.

  11. No wonder every woman who read this novel like lawyer he….I also fall in love with him 😛 I will watch the drama like wallace but don’t like his hair style look awkward..sorry ladies..:-)

  12. In bahasa (I’m Indonesian😊)we call it “jambul katulistiwa” …LOL

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  14. I love this book and really want a copy of it. Where can I buy it if I am from Canada?

  15. lol. The reference to Return of the Condor Hero is wrong. Yang Guo waited for Xiao Long Nu for 16 years. Not 18.

    Anyways thanks for the translation… truly appreciate reading this novel so far!!!

    • This is an allusion to ROCH as interpreted by me (it is in bracket), not direct reference by the author so the years need not be exact, just the concept of long waiting period.

      Anyway right or wrong, I’ve no right to change what the author had written. You can leave Gu Man a comment in her weibo.

  16. I love it more with every new chapter, Thank you so much for your effort.

  17. He Ye Chin has a very convenient memory. Maybe he should reread chapter 1. Translator; two “one of my favorite authors ”Really, really miss you”

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