Fangirling Chinese Novels

Really, Really Miss You (很想很想你) – Chapter 15



*squee* Mo Bao Fei Bao announced on her Weibo a couple days ago that Really, Really Miss You is going to be made into a radio drama.  OMG!  I’m going to faint.  Someone fan me, please!  Peanuts has tried to bring me back to reality, reminding me that most radio dramas take foreeeeever to finish and many don’t even make it to completion.  However, the anticipation of hearing a potential real live version of Toupai’s voice is enough to make me giddy.  Mo Bao Fei Bao even worked hard to get her most beloved idol and male god to do the voice acting for Toupai’s role.  While I don’t expect anything in the near future, I just had to share the news on here!  *happy dance*

In this chapter, Sheng Sheng gets another one of Toupai’s contact details… or should we say, Toupai very smoothly gets another one of Sheng Sheng’s contact details? 😉

Chapter 15 – Poached “Pearls” with Conch (6)

Soon, the private message window started flashing again.

Qiang Qing Ci: Go to the kitchen and get some sesame oil. Swallow just a small amount. It should feel better tomorrow morning.

Gu Sheng: Huh? Does that work?

Qiang Qing Ci: Mm-hmm.

Gu Sheng: *nod* I’m going right now.

To her, the condition of her voice was of utmost importance.

Although singing the occasional song or two in a false male voice was unlikely to cause any serious negative consequences, since this was Toupai’s suggestion, she knew it was absolutely, unquestionably going to be effective! She fumbled her way to the kitchen. Since it was so late in the night, she did not turn on any lights and only relied on the moonlight as she felt around for the bottle of sesame oil. She opened one bottle after another, sniffing each one, until she finally smelled the strong aroma of sesame oil. Furtively, she took a quick sip.

Dad, Mom… don’t mind me…

When she was finished, she noticed a plate of ingredients on the kitchen table. She leaned forward against the table and examined them for a moment, quickly deducing what was for lunch tomorrow. Satisfied with her conclusion, she slipped back to her own room again.

When she returned, she earnestly reported back to Qiang Qing Ci: DaRen, I just finished drinking some.

Qiang Qing Ci: *smile*

Her mouth right now was filled with the scent of sesame oil, so fragrant it could overpower people.

She thought about her inbox full of singing debts and suddenly felt anxious. Lots of time was required in practicing and singing lyrics along to music until it sounded good, and then she still needed to find a time when her voice was in good form in order to record the vocals track… T T How did she manage to accept more than forty song requests? At this rate, she was going to be paying off these commitments all the way until next year’s winter break…

Qiang Qing Ci: Typing’s a little tiring. Do you mind using QQ voice chat?

She had still been adding up in her mind how many songs she was going to have to record when this line of text… caused her heart to jump. It was late, but with such a well-insulated room, there would definitely not be any issues with using voice chat. Besides, since she entered into the ancient-style music circle, her parents were used to her recording things in the middle of the night.


Gu Sheng gaped at that row of text again, her breathing still unsteady.

After YY and WeChat… she was now going to get Qiang Qing Ci DaRen’s QQ, too?

Why was the world starting to seem so unfathomable and difficult to understand?…

While her eyes were still fixed on the screen in a slight daze, Qiang Qing Ci had already messaged over a string of numbers that was his QQ ID number.

She lightly breathed out and then swiftly added him as a contact in QQ. As she slipped on her headset, her heart inexplicably began to race.

This felt completely different from YY, k?…

In a YY room, even if there were only two people inside, you still felt that it was a public platform. However, QQ voice chat only allowed one-on-one interaction, and no matter how you looked at it, it still felt more personal and private… Plus, in YY, she would always immediately dash off once she was finished singing and would never stay for casual chatting…

In short, this was just very nerve-wracking …

It was like she was waiting for a personal telephone call from Qiang Qing Ci.

Before long, he was successfully added.

And then, he sent over an invitation to start a voice chat.

Gu Sheng accepted and then immediately became even more nervous.

Normally in WeChat, they took turns sending voice messages. That was completely different from the dialogue that was going to happen now…

“You there?” Qiang Qing Ci suddenly addressed her.

“Huh?” Gu Sheng pressed down on her microphone lightly and adjusted its position. “DaRen, I’m here.”

“Continue what you were saying.”


(⊙ o ⊙) …… Continue saying… what?……

“Ah….. I just went and swallowed some sesame oil…” She looked down contemptuously upon herself. She could not think of a topic at all. “DaRen, you’re not tired anymore?”

With a nonchalant “mm,” Qiang Qing Ci answered, “Just woke up. Looking for something to eat now.”

His voice was so clear, like he was standing directly in front of her.

Gu Sheng inwardly scorned herself again. How come she was acting like this was the first time she had ever had an online voice chat? …

It was quiet again.

This wasn’t WeChat. Silence was extremely awkward, you know? T T

Gu Sheng was struggling when she suddenly remembered the ingredients she had just seen. “I…… Um, just now, when I was in the kitchen, I saw that my mom had prepped some conch meat… I’ll probably be eating poached ‘pearls’ with conch for lunch tomorrow.”

Qiang Qing Ci gave an indistinct “mm.”

It sounded as if some sort of food packaging was being ripped open. Potato chips?

Alright… And then straightaway came the crunching sound of chips being eaten …

Since DaRen was having a late-night snack, then let her take the lead in the conversation. T T

“I’ve always liked that dish.” Gu Sheng quickly looked up the recipe on Baidu. After finding it, she read it over carefully and processed it into her own words. “You cut the conch into large, rinse them clean in warm water, and put them in a large soup bowl with choy sum that have been blanched in water and Nameko mushrooms. Then you mince some scallions and ginger. After, you add some cooking wine and water to them to make a ginger-scallion liquid.

“And then you prepare the ‘pearls.’ The pearls are actually just chicken meat.

You mince the chicken until it becomes a paste, add egg white and pork fat to it, and then stir them together until they’re well mixed. After that, you can shape them into little balls, maybe one centimeter in diameter or so. Boil some water; then turn down the heat and drop the meatballs in to poach until they’re cooked through. After, you add in sesame oil, MSG, and pepper. And finally, while everything is still hot, you pour it all into the soup bowl with the conch… Um, and then it’s ready to eat.”


She was done talking.

She clearly heard Qiang Qing Ci chuckle a little helplessly. “Mm-hmm, I know. It’s a well known dish in Shandong cuisine.”

……Okay. No problem… She would treat this as a chance to learn a new recipe…

Qiang Qing Ci gave a little sigh.

And then… very concisely and to the point, he told her, “I think, I’m even more hungry now.”

He was simply saying a casual statement to her.

Oh God… then what was this immense feeling of guilt that was hitting her?…

DaRen, I was wrong.” Gu Sheng felt terribly remorseful and, in a sincere tone, said into the headset, “How about… I sing a song for you to make it up to you?”

It seemed singing was the only thing she knew how to do and that Qiang Qing Ci liked?

“Sure,” he laughed.

Gu Sheng’s wordlessly closed her eyes.

Late into the midnight hours, having an online chat with her most beloved idol’s voice…

She was honestly going to die…

Opening up her folder of music, she slowly and carefully searched through it. Finally, she found a song that was on the more soothing side.

She cleared her throat a little bit. It did seem to feel quite a bit better.

This song did not require a great deal of effort to sing, and listening to it… should be very relaxing as well.

She opened up the BGM (background music), and a very ethereal song gradually could be heard. She hummed along with the introduction for a little while before she began singing in a gentle voice:

I have taken my sorrows and brewed them into a bottle of wine for parting
In the midnight hours, drifting aimlessly in the rain on the mountain
Past things of the mortal world always shadowing closely behind, leaving behind a song
If one can become a deity, why would one still be unable to let go?
The eaves you once lived under are now drenched by dew
And accompanying the shadows, they seem to be painted into the distant late autumn scene
Shadows cast by candles are agitating, and I mock myself that I am like duckweed swept downstream to the east
Call out to the bright moon, and mix its twilight glow in to dilute the sorrows……”

This was a song that she loved a ton, so she was able to sing it very proficiently. She did not really need to look at the lyrics and still she could smoothly sing it.

Qiang Qing Ci seemed very familiar with this song as well and was able to recognize that it was “Zai Feng Ming Yue Zhao Jiu Zhou” [When the Bright Moon Shines Again Upon the Nine Provinces[1]]. During the interlude, he stated the name of the song and even told her in a gentle voice, “The lyrics of the song contain a poem[2]. I really like it, too.”

Such a low, unhurried voice that seemed to possess a magnetism in it, speaking alongside the interlude…

Gu Sheng was somewhat mesmerized as she listened to him and nearly forgot to sing the second half of the song…

Fortunately, she managed to force herself to recover her professionalism in time and was able to complete the song.

Because it was so late already, when she had finished singing, Toupai told her that she should go to sleep.

Gu Sheng did not really want to, but she still obediently shut off QQ and computer and climbed into bed. All wrapped up in her blankets, she was still thinking about her voice chat with Toupai, which had seemed more like a private phone call. So… now, besides his phone number, she actually was so blessed as to have all of his contact details?

She was somewhat in a state of disbelief…

In this euphoric state of mind, she drifted off to sleep…

When she woke up the next day, it was already eleven o’clock.

It was two days before school was to resume again…

As she groggily sat up in bed, she heard the sounds of cooking coming from the kitchen. Swiftly, she washed up and then turned on her computer. She had just logged into Weibo when she noticed bewilderedly that she had been @ several dozen times again.

A wave of apprehension struck her first, but then after looking at the number of @… Hmm… Shouldn’t be Toupai’s fans…

This was going to turn into a mental sickness soon…


She opened up the notifications. But she had not anticipated this…

I… I… I… I had my first day of internship at the recording studio today. My first day, ah! And I actually saw my male idol and god, @QiangQingCi! My male god, don’t worry; I promised you. I took an oath! I absolutely will not leak any of your photos or info! But can I say something that’s true! My male god, you are honestly… TOO! HANDSOME!! K?!!!! T T, Sheng Sheng Man…… I… AM… SO… JEALOUS… OF… YOU!!!! #


[1] Orig. 九州or ‘Jiu Zhou.’ Literally means “Nine Provinces.” As early as the Shang dynasty, Chinese historical texts have mentioned the “Nine Provinces,” although the actual names of the provinces may differ depending on which text is referenced as they also changed through historical time. However, the name “Nine Provinces” symbolically came to represent China as a whole.

[2] The chorus, from 1:40 to 2:01 or so, contains lyrics from the folksong 月儿弯弯照九州 [The Crescent Moons Shines on the Nine Provinces], which originated from the province of Jiangsu.


Additional Comments:

I searched and searched, but there only appears to be one photo on the web for the dish mentioned in this chapter.  The pic seems to be a spicier version than the one Sheng Sheng is talking about.  (Sheng Sheng never mentioned chili pepper flakes!)  After deliberating on whether I should include the photo, I decided I would, just to make everyone feel hungry with me before I go to bed!  Mwahaha!

The song in this chapter, 再逢明月照九州 “Zai Feng Ming Yue Zhao Jiu Zhou” [When the Bright Moon Shines Again on the Nine Provinces] is a sub theme song from an online video game called 寻仙 [Seeking Divinity].  This is a rough translation.  (Sorry!  The baby hasn’t been sleeping well the last few nights which means I’ve been sleep deprived and surviving off milk tea, unable to think.)

I have taken my sorrows and brewed them into a bottle of wine for parting

In the midnight hours, drifting aimlessly in the rain on the mountain

Past things of the mortal world always shadowing closely behind, leaving behind a song

[00:51]若成仙 为何不愿放手
If one can become a deity, why would one still be unable to let go?

The eaves you once lived under are now drenched by dew

And accompanying the shadows, they are painted into the distant late autumn scene

Shadows cast by candles are agitating, and I mock myself that I am like duckweed swept downstream to the east

[01:18]唤明月 融余辉 淡闲愁
Call out to the bright moon, and mix its twilight glow in to dilute the sorrows

[01:25]仲夏来临后 卷帘 唱弹 啊……
As midsummer approaches, roll up the curtains and sing and make music. Ah…

The crescent moon shines upon the Nine Provinces

How many are happy? How many are troubled?

How many are in high pavilions enjoying fine wine?

[02:00]几家流落在呀嘛在街头 在巷口
How many are left living in the streets and alleys?

Years later, velvety snow has blown onto and whitened your brows

We brush shoulders [as we walk by each other] beside the old Luo Feng well on the east side of the city

You are murmuring a song, the words familiar to both of us

[02:58]陌路人 涌泪也别回头
Now strangers [to each other]. Even if tears are filling the eyes, do not look back

[03:04]桨声涟漪中 尘世 依旧 啊……
Even amid the sounds of the moving oars and rippling waters, the mundane world is still as before. Ah…

The crescent moon shines upon the Nine Provinces

How many are happy? How many are troubled?

How many are in high pavilions enjoying fine wine?

[03:39]几家流落在呀嘛在街头 在巷口
How many are left living in the streets and alleys?

The crescent moon shines upon the Nine Provinces

How many are happy? How many are troubled?

How many are in high pavilions enjoying fine wine?

[04:10]几家流落在呀嘛在街头 在巷口
How many are left living in the streets and alleys?

[04:20]月弯弯 去寻仙
A crescent moon. In search of divinity

[04:34]月弯弯 故人远
A crescent moon. Old friend has gone afar.

29 thoughts on “Really, Really Miss You (很想很想你) – Chapter 15

  1. Thank hoju! I actually only like the first verse of the song, then it just got too much for me.

    And omg can’t wait for radio drama to come too, thanks for the sharing the news, do fill us in when there is one out! XD I would love to listen to Toupai and Sheng Sheng

    • I love the feel of the intro and the verse. If I don’t focus too much on the song and just allow it to play in the background, it is very soothing. However, if I actually tune in and listen, the folksong part is not my thing. I don’t hate it, but I don’t care for it either. My hubby was ready to strangle me because he cannot stand the folksong part, and I was listening to the song on and off the whole night to translate and note the timing of the lyrics.

      I hope it the radio drama will come out some time within the foreseeable future. This is THE novel I really wanted to listen to!

  2. i am dying for the episode when SS and Toupai meet in person 🙂

  3. Yay! Another chapter of our beloved Sheng Sheng and QQC! Thank you! And sorry that the baby is keeping you up. I can’t believe you have time to translate if you have a baby to take care of! I applaud all of the translators and bloggers out there juggling real life and translation/blogging.

    I had no idea that QQ actually had a voice app! Lol! But then again, I rarely used it and it’s mostly in Chinese. Not surprising that I didn’t know. Slowly but surely, they are getting closer and closer! But I do have a question, I never really explore WeChat, but most of my contacts are linked to the phone numbers already in my phone or via QQ. Did Sheng Sheng and QQC use another method to add each other such as through a user ID name and that’s why she doesn’t have his other info? I’m very not app savy. I rather talk on the phone or email.

    Counting down: 2 more chapters! Lol. I loved how the chapter ended. Most of the recent chapters seem to be ending with some screaming fan or online comment relating to ambiguous status of these two. ^^

    On a side note, I actually enjoyed this song a lot. It is definitely very soothing and I am getting ready to sleep as well. Thank you!

    • I love this novel enough to dedicate my few hours of spare time to it most days. And translating is a way to keep my mind semi-active… 🙂

      WeChat goes through your address book and will create a list of any WeChat users that have a phone number that matches one in your contacts. You can they send off a friend request from this list of “suggested friends.” However, there are other ways to add friends in WeChat. One way is to add them by their unique WeChat ID. Toupai’s WeChat ID is “Moqingcheng.” He gave it to Sheng Sheng at the end of chapter 8.

      Song is soothing, for sure. One of those songs I’d like to play but only listen to subconsciously.

  4. thank you so much Hoju!

    this chapter is just as cute as the previous ones.. this toupai.. aiyoo.. who is he actually?? so curious la.. Lols..

    ee e e e.. reading chang’er’s comment about 2 more chapters.. omo.. it only has 17 chapters? too short la.. i love this story and still want to read more about this toupai.. ^^

    once again, thank you Hoju!!!

    • Yui, no no. They officially meet at chapter 17, which I’m excited about. I think hoju mentioned there are 50+ chapters to this story so don’t be sad. ^^

      • 2 more chapters yay! Counting down with you!

        Toupai really is so smooth in getting her details. Ah but that song was really nice. I replayed it several times. This is my most favorite song so far out of all the ones used and I placed myself in Toupai’s POV having someone I like singing such a nice song to me. I bet he was just grinning and sighing with joy all throughout. No wonder he is under Sheng Sheng’s spell.

        • LOL at the countdown that’s going on with you guys. 🙂

          I find it ironic that Sheng Sheng thinks she is so blessed that she’s getting Toupai’s contact info. She has no clue that it’s actually Toupai getting all her details out of her…

          I love how the different opinions on music here. Glad that you love the song! The author said she wanted to introduce these ancient style songs to a broader audience, and of course put in her fave songs into the story when she originally wrote it. 🙂

      • huaaa.. 50 something chapters?? omonaaa.. wow.. it feels like watching daily drama 🙂 but im glad..
        so.. in chapter 17 they will meet, aiyooo.. can’t waiiiiittt…
        thank you chang’er ^^

        dear Hoju, fighting!!! ^^

    • Yui, You’re welcome! Who is Toupai? Hehe… You’re just like the other tens of thousands of fans who are dying to know more about Toupai. 😀

      Yes, 53 chapters in the online version. The published version will be longer than what’s online now. MBFB always writes extra specifically for the published novel, but for this one, she isn’t sure whether it will be an extended ending or side story(ies)/epilogue(s) or both.

      • and you already read all those chapter? daebak *i dunno what i should say in Mandarin, hehe*

        haha.. yeah, this Toupai is really something.. read your comment above about toupai got her detail info from her, omo.. what a cute and smart way Toupai. he made me falling in love with him again and again *haha, Peanuts would say that i’m not loyal to one man since i love Yi Chen, Lu Li Cheng and Lu Jun too, and now Toupai* LOLs

        well.. i’ll be patiently waiting for other chapters.. thank you for your hardworking, it’s not easy to finish 53 chapters, but you.. *teary eyes*, you’re the best 🙂 thank you! fighting! jiayou!

        • How about ‘li hai’ 厉害 in Mandarin? But, of course I’ve read all the chapters. I finished the whole novel and couldn’t get enough of it. That’s why I picked it up as a translation project so I could spread the love and get people to discuss it with me.

          You’re allowed to have a top 10 list of your favourite guys. 😉 I have a solid top 3 list, and then others that I “like a lot.” But my top 3 list is pretty firm. You only have 4 on your list; you have a lot of slots to fill. 😉

          LOL. Thank you for the encouragement. 🙂

  5. Hi hoju 🙂

    Super thanks!

    – samie

  6. Hoju thanks 🙂 wow you must be can’t wait to follow the radio drama 😀 too bad i’m not understand hehe but when you get the link someday in the future would you put in hui3r blog 🙂 . I also looking forward the chapter they meet first time 😀

    • I’m positively giddy that I’ll hear anything. As much as I hope the whole novel will be complete, I’m not holding out too much hope yet. I’ll be happy for just a little promotional clip or anything. If anything comes out, I’ll pass on the link on the blog here.

      Wah! Another person doing the countdown!

  7. Wow thank you for the translations! Toupai and Sheng Sheng are getting closer, hehe.
    I always assume Toupai was always handsome, heh. 😀
    I finally know why the chapter was called poached “pearls” with conch. The picture looks really good. I feel hungry now,lol.

    • You’re welcome. 🙂 Hunger likes company. I’m starving every time I have to translate a recipe, so it’s only fair that you guys get hungry after reading it, right?

  8. I am not familiar with this style/type of music but this one is literally utterly beautiful. Thank you for the lyrics and the translation. The lyrics are so poetic…. LOVE IT! =)

    • You are most welcome. The lyrics of most ancient style songs are so gorgeous. There are some really talented lyricists out there. I’m glad you found one you love. 🙂

  9. Omg haha. The music is really good.
    Thank you so much~

  10. Just got into reading english translated chinese novels and im hooked!

  11. I really like this song….i loved most of the songs included in the novel.
    Is it possible to make a separate post with the list of songs featured in the novel, along with the links?

  12. Really really hungry now QAQ

    Thank you for translating~^^

  13. I love this song too, not often to hear all these songs again .
    Remind me when I was watching old chinese drama with
    my parent.
    I will try to make some of this food , some familiar to me ,
    and some it is my first time to get to know .

    Love to read chinese novel lately, give me a lot of thing
    , not only culture, their proverb, history .

    Thanks so much to. You and MBFB xxx

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