Fangirling Chinese Novels

Blazing Sunlight I (骄阳似我 上) – Chapter 6



Chapter Six

On encountering the chilly night breeze after sprinting out of the hostel, I became more clearheaded. I vaguely pondered what they thought of my hasty retreat?

That I was acknowledging my guilt? Or avoiding punishment?

I can’t speak for the others but based on how Zhuang Xu viewed me, I was highly certain he would think that.

It was so laughable. Before today, I naively assumed that even if Zhuang Xu didn’t like me and despised me for lacking direction in life, he would at least be grateful and think me a decent human. After all, I had help him previously had I not?

However once again I was proven an idiot.

Ever since I became acquainted with Zhuang Xu, I seem to be sliding more and more into idiot territory. It must have been a comedy when I wooed him initially; me the presumptuous unsuspecting clown. When I had finally gotten my facts right, I quickly withdrew from the love triangle and texted him an explanation and apology, “I’m sorry. I wasn’t aware you and Rong Rong are together. If I did, I wouldn’t have said what I did. I hope I didn’t cause you any trouble.”

Apologizing for my crush, just thinking about it made me feel small.

But I simply couldn’t allow him to misunderstand that I was intentionally being the third wheel.

That text met the same fate as the majority of texts I sent him – there was no reply. Now that I thought of it, maybe he didn’t believe me.

Why would he?

How could he believe that I wasn’t aware of their relationship when I was hostel mates with Rong Rong? Why would he believe that even when I clarified with Rong Rong back then, she merely answered nonchalantly “Although we grew up together, we don’t really know each other.”?

My eyes started to smart and I dabbed at it in a bid to stop crying. Alas, the tearing became more torrential. The ache in my chest also threatened to erupt in ugly crying. I always assumed that being in love would be a wonderful feeling, so was why it so unbearable?

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I sat in a secluded spot in school until it was late. By then, I was so hungry, I couldn’t bear it any longer. I noticed that the sky was completely dark. I didn’t have any inkling of what time it was and I hadn’t my phone nor wallet with me. Fortuitously, I had some spare change in my pockets. Otherwise, I would be both maligned and starving and that would truly be a sorry state to be in.

I jammed my hands in my pockets and slowly ambled out of campus. The night market outside the North gates was still lively, blasting the latest hits in a cacophony of voices. It lifted my spirits immediately. I inhaled deeply, calming my emotions somewhat. However the glaring lights hurt my eyes. I escaped to a beef noodle eatery that I usually frequented and ordered a bowl before spinning the chopsticks in my hand absent-mindedly.

Spinning pens and chopsticks was a bad habit I picked up in senior high. I hadn’t dabbled in it for so many years but somehow it came back to me naturally. The chopsticks spun swiftly between my fingers; my skills were not at all rusty.

However, when a certain couple walked in, my fingers stopped abruptly and the chopsticks landed on the body of another female customer seated opposite me with a loud thud.

It was Zhuang Xu and Rong Rong. She was holding onto him and smiling cheerily.

I finally experienced the idiom “the paths of enemies crossing”.

It was no surprise that they should visit this store because it was a frequent haunt of A University students. The beef noodles here was unparalleled and was famous even in Nanjing. But why now of all times?

Rong Rong led Zhuang Xu to another corner of the shop. They hadn’t noticed my presence. Even from afar, I could pick up on Rong Rong’s buoyant mood as she smiled gaily and conversed with Zhuang Xu. It was a stark contrast to how terribly I was feeling.

It was my first time seeing them behave so intimately in public. Rong Rong usually acted with decorum and would only refer to Zhuang Xu as a friend no matter who probed. I couldn’t have been the catalyst that led them together could I? If I was, I was too efficient for my own liking.

I laughed at my foolishness and the bitterness started to swell from within once again.

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I apologised to the female stranger before retrieving my chopsticks.

It was just in time for my noodles. I bowed my head low as I stuffed myself, hoping to make my getaway before they spotted me.

However, God had other plans. When the stranger had finished eating, she bumped into the waiter who was laden with dishes as she got up from her seat. It was chaotic for a second as both of them steadied themselves. Although the waiter maintained his professionalism, his voice was still rather loud as he boomed “Be careful!”, attracting the attention of the diners.

Even though they hadn’t looked in my direction yet, at the rate the waiter was going, it would only be a matter of time. Besides, I had lost all appetite. So before the waiter could continue with his speech, I grabbed a twenty from my pocket and called for the bill.

Without waiting for my change, I promptly got up and left.

Ultimately, Rong Rong saw me. Our line of vision met just as I was getting up. She sneered and looked away, as though she couldn’t stand the sight of me.

I clenched my fist and suppressed the urge to stomp up to her and engage in verbal sparring as I forced myself to leave.

My mood was spiralling to the pits.

I had no desire to return to the hostel so I headed for the bus-stop and Uncle’s place.

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When I reached, cousin had already completed his evening revision and was indulging in supper and television. The moment he saw me, he hugged his plate of snacks tighter in his embrace “Jie, why have you returned today? I’m starving, don’t snatch my food!”

“It’s all yours.” I simply hadn’t the mood and ran upstairs to my room.

I had just laid down on bed when cousin came a-knocking “Hey Nie Xi Guang, I can’t finish this after all, would you like some? Aunty Zhang made these buns, it has meat in them.”

I ignored him.

Cousin was relentless with his knocking. “Jie, it cannot be you’ve fallen out of love again right?”

Why was the whole world so irritating today? I hopped off the bed and opened the door with an expressionless face “So what if I have?”

“Again?” Cousin’s jaw dropped. Then, he started sniggering “It can’t still be Zhuang Xu right? Didn’t you let go of him already?”

Under my intense glare, he finally comforted me insincerely “It’s alright! At least you didn’t lose your virginity.”

“…” After being stupefied for about two seconds, I kicked the door shut in his face.

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I was the proverbial cowardly ostrich in uncle’s place for two days but in the end, I had no choice but to return. My notes and laptop were all back there, along with the draft of my thesis.

I didn’t know if I was being overly sensitive but I felt I was the subject of much unwanted attention along the way back. I was baffled to see acquaintances from my course staring at me but despite my curiosity, I wasn’t about to collar them and demand an explanation. Much later, Ah Fen clued me in. She said the rumour had spread like wildfire and people even took the liberty to sensationalize the matter; there were many versions of how Nie Xi Guang was a backstabbing love rival. It was indeed a fantastic exercise at stretching the imaginations of my batchmates. News had spread so far that even the career guidance counsellor had phoned Rong Rong up to console her.

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I had chosen to go back at three in the afternoon, a time no one would usually be in. When I pushed open the door, I saw that unfortunately, many of them were present. Rong Rong was right in the centre smiling broadly although she tensed for a moment on seeing me before she broke out into smiles again.

“Nie Xi Guang, with regards to that incident, I’m letting it go. Afterall we’re batchmates.”

I no longer had any interest in explaining so I stared woodily at her.

She toyed with the handphone in her palm “This was Zhuang Xu’s gift to me yesterday, an advanced birthday gift. As with all things, you lose some and you win some. Why go to such lengths to scheme when it may backfire?”

Her innuendo silenced the room. I stared hard at the flashy handphone before saying calmly “What’s there to boast about such an ordinary phone?”

Her face reddened before it returned to normalcy “Indeed the phone is ordinary, it was barely a thousand dollars. Miss Nie may not care for it but haven’t you heard?” She paused before placing emphasis “A lover is rarer than a priceless treasure.”

I paused before replying “Yes, a lover is rare. Congratulations.”

There was absolutely no way I could remain there. I packed everything before fleeing to uncle’s place.

I never should have moved back to the hostel.

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21 thoughts on “Blazing Sunlight I (骄阳似我 上) – Chapter 6

  1. One b*tchy & sad excuse of friend with a completely spineless n clueless crush/ first love….worst case scenario fr our heroine

  2. My only regret was starting this novel. I should have waited for more chapters.
    Now, I can’t wait to see how she’s gonna battle it out or should I say that guy is not worth a dime.

  3. Omg, I love her so much more than Mo sheng. Finally! A female character I can really relate myself with. :))

  4. What a bitter chapter. Did Gu Man really wrote this? Doesn’t she have any friend who trusts her at all? I hope she never gets in touch with these people again.

  5. OMG!!! wow with friends like her… she´s a nasty little piece of work. Poor our Nie Xi Guang, hope this misunderstanding get clear very soon and that “friend” of hers recive what she deserve.
    Thank you for the translation. ❤

  6. oh my my, I really hope she fall out from Zhuang Xu completely, move on to a better person and have a better friend circle. What a nasty person that Rong rong can be.

    and why on earth that Zhuang Xu always keep silence and explain nothing. He is kindda coward? and when he speak he only more create trouble and more frustration. argggggg I feel irritate for heroine. lol. I like heroine character. She has somewhat real emotional character and strong. The situation is also realistic.

  7. I think they are all jealous of her. With friends like that, you don’t need them. This chapter is making me angry….I need to read something fluffy for now.

  8. So I assumed the main lead probably hates her wealth for the same reason as LC did in My sunshine. But LCh spoiled me into believing a boy who loves a girl despite her parents’s wrong doing. However this guy is just so wrong in so many ways. He couldn’t explain to her the reason why he acts cold towards her but instead just lets her go through all the assumptions? He might become likable in later chapters but i have firmly decided not to ship him.

  9. huaaaaa.. fighting Xi Guang, you dont need friends like that, uggghhtt, they arent your friends, only people you know. and that man! i cant wait for another man to come.
    this story is getting good, is it one chapter every week?? *grins* 😀

    that man, WHATSOEVER his name is.. i just dislike him. even he ‘looks’ like YC, i just dont care. i already dislike him this much. lols

    thanks yingniang 🙂

    • He doesn’t look like YC, just behaves like YC lol. Even if we translate more than a chapter a week for you, what is the use when you’ve to wait years for GM’s part 2 lol? We are trying to spread out your pain haha…….

      • wow.. spread out my pain?? you sound like an antagonist to me 😛 lol

        ah ya that’s right.. GM is like a turtle when it comes to novel 😦

        btw, when will LJ come? i miss him already 😛 haha.. thanks anyway

  10. oh god… i can’t even…

    i refuse to use the word “friends” to refer to those lame people and they now shall forever be “those lame people”… who wanna bet rong rong is the one behind it all?

    and zhuan xu… i wanted to give him a chance because he has the same name as zhuan xu ge ge in lost you forever… but gawd, he’s making it hard to stand him!

    thank god xi guang has a backbone!!!

  11. Thank you very much for the translation. I just hope in the later chapter when Xi Guang will not choose the present man who is a two timer and a coward.

    A coward who would not admit his feeling for Xi Guang. He was the one who also helped to distributed XG resumes, didn’t he? Also asking for a favour from his friend to accept late CV of XG in hope so she work there to be near him instead of, RR who suppose to be his gf? If he do not have two time thoughts then what make him be? Action and thoughts go hand in hand. He do not admit he was guilty so just pushed and made XG as the culprit. I don’t like him at all.

  12. Ha. I can relate to her at one point in my life I been in a quite similar situation

  13. Wow, those ‘friends’ are certainly not worth keeping. I’m enjoying this novel so far, the heroine seems to be quite strong – I like that she has so far refused to back down or concede to the petty Rong Rong. Zhuang Xu is proving himself to be more of an impenetrable mystery – the man needs to find his words and have a confrontation so we can get somewhere!

    Thanks for the awesome translations!

  14. I love the story so far, especially how complicated the relationship between Xi Guang and Zhuang Xu is 🙂 Thank you so much for translating this 🙂 Could someone recommend a similar story (a completed one, preferably :p )?

  15. Thank you so much for translating this. My favorite kind of story is just like this one with a darker underlying theme and with a heroine with plenty of backbone and a hero who doesn’t necessarily like her since the beginning.
    And for all the readers who say he doesn’t deserve her, that speaks of emotional immaturity. In RL men you like will not necessary like you back and even if you’re hurt you need to stand your ground and maybe learn something from it, not say “he didn’t deserve it anyway”. That kind of attitude is the proverbial sour grape. Be better than that. Out of all the translations on this site, THIS ONE IS MY FAVORITE. Please translate some more.

  16. ZX is probably trying to make Watermelon jealous 😉

  17. Omg.. I don’t know if I should continue reading this… Rong Rong is just too hateful.
    Thanks again, yingniang.

  18. OKAY, I’m just starting this novel, and i had this feeling of “here we go again” . I mean no offense i love the other translationsof novel by Gu Man, but I had this very BAD premonition that I’ll have a love-hate relationship with the male MC, Ahm “coughs” but let see if it will or not come true..
    FYI: I LOVE the female MC attitude, very rare to see MC like this that knows her place though sometimes coward atleast she not a bitch, hahahahahahaha or too stupid/smart.

  19. Although I’ve never experienced the kind of things Xi Guang went through, but I could feel the pain and heartache by reading the lines. Thanks to the wonderful translation and of course Gu Man’s brilliance. I’m so gonna finish this story by today!

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