Fangirling Chinese Novels

Blazing Sunlight I (骄阳似我 上) – Chapter 11



Chapter Eleven

It was not until the day of the vivas that I bumped into my hostel mates. The moment Xiao Feng laid eyes on me, she pounced and shook my shoulders vigorously “I’m sorry Watermelon! My blunder caused you to be maligned. You must forgive me!”

As if she wanted to prove her sincerity, her hands that were gripping my shoulders were as forceful as eagle claws. I felt as though my shoulders were going to shatter …

“… Do you think I would forgive you if you maim me?”

“Haha I’m sorry! I was too overcome with emotions!” She smiled brightly as she withdrew her claws. “Watermelon, you can rest easy. These past few days, I’ve been filling everyone in on what truly happened.”

“Filling everyone in?”

“Everyone declared me a pig for forgetting such an important phone call.”

It was unbearable to be wrongly accused and condemned so I felt comforted on hearing what she did.

Boss and Ah Fen were also present so I smiled at them.

It’s not that I wasn’t bitter anymore but on careful thought, both Rong Rong and I were their hostel mates so I really should not have expected them to side me regardless especially since Rong Rong’s theory was airtight.

When one lowers his expectation of others, one will be happier.

My demeanour caused Boss and Ah Fen to relax and they crowded round to discuss the upcoming vivas. Apart from Si Jing and Rong Rong, the rest of us were in the same slot. We were scheduled to finish by evening.

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The number I drew was relatively high so I was amongst the last candidates of the day. When it was my turn, the lecture theatre was more or less emptied. Xiao Feng and the others had wanted to keep me company but I had chased them off. Having familiar faces in the audience might have made me more nervous. When I was about to greet the professors, I happened to note Zhuang Xu standing by the backdoor. His view was trained on me.

I stared stupefied.

He must have ambled into the wrong theatre because Rong Rong wasn’t there …

The thought flashed through my mind but I didn’t dare continue being distracted so I launched wholeheartedly into my presentation. During the question and answer segment, I subconsciously cast a glance at the backdoor. There was no one there.

It was rather late by the time I exited the theatre. Initially, I had intended to head straight to uncle’s place but as I neared the intersection, I recalled that I hadn’t collected my belongings from the hostel so I turned on my heels and headed there instead.

Only Si Jing was present. I greeted her neutrally before sorting out the items that were convenient to carry.

I had only been packing briefly when I realized that Si Jing was standing right behind me.

“Xi Guang, let me treat you to a meal today.”

“ … There isn’t a need to.”

“You can’t turn me down.”

“ … Then let’s wait for Xiao Feng and the others?”

“Just us two.”

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I assumed she wanted to seize the chance to offer some explanation or other. I certainly didn’t expect her to remain silent throughout the meal. When we had finished eating, she dragged me to the nearby minimart to buy a whole carton of beer before leading me to the park to feed the mosquitoes.

Was the saying ‘graduates act abnormally’ true then?

“You must think I’m a backstabber and that I like to gossip about people behind their backs.”

“… You think too much.”

She must have been drunk. I counted the empty cans around us – there were four and none of it was my contribution. What Si Jing said next confirmed my judgement.

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“You probably don’t know that you were a popular subject of discussion right from the beginning. You were obviously not from around these parts yet you didn’t live in the hostel initially. Some of our classmates mentioned seeing you alighting from a luxury car. We eventually heard from your secondary school classmates that you came from a powerful and renowned family.”

“There was also the domineering manner in which you wooed him.”


I never thought I would be labelled with that description.

To be honest, I was a coward. Because I had no courage, I had to make a bigger show of it, to give myself that added confidence boost. I knew if I chased him openly and failed, at least there would be no regrets.

“When Zhuang Xu’s mother fell ill, you were able to withdraw such an astronomical sum of money at such short notice.” Si Jing smiled bitterly. “Xi Guang, do you know, even I was intimidated by the fact that you could casually withdraw a sum of over ten thousand without first seeking your parent’s approval? It was the first time I noted the great disparity between people. Furthermore, the back was packed the day we went to withdraw that sum. The counter machine had spoilt and the queue snaked a long way. However, the moment you entered, the manager came over to welcome us personally. It was as if he could sense that you were of no ordinary status. All you had to do was tell him and we were ushered into the VIP room. We didn’t have to queue at all! I had never grasped the power of money so acutely before.”

I couldn’t recall those fine details. It must have been like she said. I had to explain “Didn’t Zhuang Xu need the cash urgently? It’s normal for the bank manager to ask what his clients need assistance with. Besides, the counter we approached was the VIP counter.”

“Yes, the VIP counter. You say it so nonchalantly. Don’t you see, there is no fairness in this world.”

I wanted to tell her that the kindhearted people in the world outnumbered the uncaring. Even if I didn’t have my VIP account that day, all I had to do was inform the queue of my plight and they would surely give way to me.

Why don’t people focus on the outcome instead of concerning themselves with the nitty-gritties?

I stared at the floor wordlessly before asking abruptly “Si Jing, do you also like Zhuang Xu?”

Although I had asked on the spur of the moment, I had been harbouring the suspicion for a long time. Her interest in the matters between Rong Rong, Zhuang Xu and I had already crossed the boundary of a normal observer so it was only natural that I came to this conclusion. I had assumed Si Jing would deflect the question, afterall she was a natural at Public Relations skills. To my utmost surprise, Si Jing readily admitted it.

“Yes, I do. A boy as handsome and talented as Zhuang Xu, who wouldn’t? Unfortunately, he comes from a poor family. His mother is ill and his brother is still very young. I have no choice but to consider these factors carefully. Why do you think Rong Rong has been stringing him along all this while? Is it really because of some silly feminist pride, that the guy has to confess? Humph. If Zhuang Xu’s familial burdens weren’t so heavy, she would have pounced a long time ago. Now she doesn’t want to string him along anymore but …”

My jaw dropped. I was dumbfounded as Si Jing carried on “Anyway, even if I hadn’t minded his background, there’s still Rong Rong blocking access to him. Aren’t you the best example? They were childhood sweethearts. Even if I had given my best, I wouldn’t necessarily have gained his heart. Then you came along. Even a blind person could tell you were interested in Zhuang Xu because you simply don’t know how to conceal your emotions. I had hoped you would succeed. Yet I was also afraid you would.”

So Si Jing could be this frank when drunk. Though it came as a shock, I had spurious thoughts of having fun. I was certain that when morning rolled around, Si Jing would regret the night’s events if she recalled it.

She seemed to have lost control of her emotions. I half comforted her and half mused “You’re much smarter than me. Indeed, what can overcome the bond of childhood sweethearts?”

She paused before bursting into smiles. She looked at me “Xi Guang, do you think he…”

“What?” I asked indifferently.

She studied me before leaping to her feet. She slung on her backpack “I won’t tell you.”

She then turned and left just like that. I could only stare speechless at her retreating figure.

Si Jing had always upheld an image of a likeable and considerate lady. When had she ever displayed such childishness? I smiled bitterly as I muttered to myself “What can you tell me?”

The next day, Si Jing called. She opened defensively with “Nie Xi Guang, I’ve forgotten everything I said yesterday.”

I paused before breaking into laughter “Oh, so have I.”

“Tonight I’m treating everyone to steamboat. You must come.”

“Oh okay.” I teased “Will we be drinking too?”

In response, Si Jing slammed the phone down.

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That night, I turned up as promised. Rong Rong and Zhuang Xu were in attendance as well. It wasn’t that I was impervious to emotions but with farewell upon us, I didn’t mind as much anymore.

In my memory, those last few days consisted of meals, cards, gatherings and karaoke. The day we were handed our graduation certificates, the class assembled for the final time. Everyone knew that it was time to say our goodbyes.

People started to leave that very night. After dinner, Ah Fen packed her four years worth of belongings and became the first to make the journey back to her hometown.

Initially I was truly not in the least bit affected. But when Ah Fen was about to board the bus at the school gate, I was suddenly assaulted by tears.

I didn’t expect to cry. I think no one did. But eventually all of us were sobbing and we simply couldn’t stop. Finally, we decided to accompany Ah Fen to the train station on impulse. We even bought platform tickets to send her all the way.

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After hugging and more hugging, the train eventually departed.

I stood at the platform and watched the train chug away. I felt as though I was bidding adieu to my youth.

My fleeting youth that passed in an instant.

Never to return again.

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No one was in the mood to speak so we walked out of the station in silence.

The bus-stop nearest the train station was always crowded. Originally, I had been standing with Ah Feng near the front. But after shifting my position to make allowance for people’s luggages, I was squeezed out. I had almost slipped because of the jostling, but fortunately, someone behind steadied me.

On seeing that the bus was so stuffed that I could not even plant my feet on it, I gave up trying and decided to ride the next one instead. When I checked the board for the next timing, I discovered unexpectedly that that was the last bus.

I couldn’t believe my eyes as I read the information over and over again. Then I heard someone beside me speak “Don’t bother. It’s the last bus.”

It was a familiar voice. I turned sharply to see Zhuang Xu’s handsome side profile.

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17 thoughts on “Blazing Sunlight I (骄阳似我 上) – Chapter 11

  1. Si Jing is implying that Rong Rong is harboring a one sided love but why is ZX always with her.
    And what is this…ZX and Xi Guang by themselves. Time for a serious talk I hope.
    When is our second male lead coming out?

  2. The tone of the novel is so heavy 😦 When are we going to get to the happy parts??

  3. I can’t wait for the second male lead to appear. Hope he’ll be more forthright with his feelings. Thank you for the update!

    • Why u so eager for the other male lead to appear bcos when he appears yingniang will disappear 😦 ? He is not the 2nd male lead but joint male lead 😛

  4. ‘My fleeting youth that passed in an instant.
    Never to return again.’

    feel this. miss those days in school. Now that I’m working, the word time flied could not be anymore true.

    I hope they don’t have the ‘unfinish’ relationship which they will always have doubt and what if.
    The talk with ZX may be a little late, but I really hope it finish and I hope it will belong to the past for her. I really wish to see the girl that could move on, meet the new person and have next relationship. The ‘back to the circle’ one would not be nice.

    Thank for translating this!

  5. ok, now I can understand him a little bit more. Rong Rong is his childhood friend and he have a lot of problems at home, in his head he can´t commit to a person yet. So, he doesn´t say anything to her. A little silly if somebody ask me. Well, hope our new guy comes along soon. We need happy moments. Thanks again for the chapter. ❤

  6. all of them were jealous of her not even white jelousy but black one
    so sad no real friends
    the guy is still pathetic in my eyes…

  7. I dont dislike zx as much anymore, i just feel indifferent. Graduation could make everyone really emotional. Although i dont like her friends, im glad they had a closure at the end of the day, since they will not likely to meet again anyway.

  8. this is a drama. i want the other guy to come asap, but then, yingniang also will disappear.. should i choose between the other guy and yingniang?? LOLs..

    emm.. this ZX isnt that dislikable.. by time, i could understand one or two of his ‘cool’ behave.. but i just feel bored of a cool guy like this.. when you love, say it.. don’t give a hope or just give a signal.. c’mon.. be a man. say it loudly.. 😛

    well.. is it a time to say goodbye to rong rong too?? seriously, this girl got on my last nerve.. if i were XG, i would definitely give her a lesson.. an unforgettable one 😛

    thanks yingniang 😀

  9. I’m going to play devil’s advocate here. I agree with everyone that Zhuang Xu should just speak up about his feelings for Xi Guang, rather than expect her to read his mind. If you snooze, you lose. Xi Guang is going to get snatched up by some other guy and then Zhuang Xu will be banging his head against the wall.

    However, knowing a bit about his background makes me wonder if he is trying to protect Xi Guang by not declaring his feelings for her. He strikes me as a very proud man. He comes from a vastly different background than the one Xi Guang hails from. So if poor guy with sick mother pursues rich girl from prominent family, then what will others think, even if he truly loves her for whom she is, for richer or for poorer? People will automatically sneer behind their backs and make insensitive comments about how he is only interested in Xi Guang for her money, especially since he needs the funds for his ailing mother. With that kind of set up, how can Xi Guang ever know if he really loves her for herself or for her money? In Zhuang Xu’s mind, he thinks he should wait until he makes a name for himself first, and then express his love for Xi Guang. Then, they can go into the relationship with equal footing.

    I guess if I had to pick between Zhuang Xu and yingniang, then I pick yingniang. Zhuang Xu can’t translate. 😀 Thanks, yingniang!

    • Ooops, I read Yui’s comment incorrectly above. If I had to choose between the soon-to-appear other male lead and yingniang, I would still pick yingniang. Girl power, right? Thanks, yingniang. 😀 However, don’t forget we get peanuts soon with her dry, sarcastic humor once the other guy appears. Whether it’s yingniang or peanuts, it’s girl power all around. Thanks for wonderful translations, ladies!

  10. hello!!! i am wondering if u are looking for translators as i am interested in translating chinese, im effectively bilingual and have a interest for c novels, i am willing to translate any stories you are working on, hope you get get back to me asap!!! thank you! 🙂

  11. Love this book and all its down to earth feels. So far no crazy external factors breaking up couples. Just normal real life issues and misunderstanding that we can all relate to. I even love the slow reveal of all the characters and their thoughts even though I can see why it’s super frustrating for people but it keeps the story tense without going overboard. Can’t wait for the next chapter!

  12. “When one lowers his expectation of others, one will be happier.” – Sad, but true.

    I’m glad she got closure, but it’s sad to see none of them were really sincere. Rong Rong’s open hostility towards her makes sense since she is his childhood friend. She could probably tell ZX is interested in her, but I still don’t understand why he never clarified and continued to let their relationship be misunderstood? ZX is a complete idiot, but I still can’t help rooting for him lol. I really hope he opens up and expresses himself before it’s too late.

    Overall an interesting chapter can’t wait to see what happens next. Thanks for translating!!!

  13. “My fleeting youth that passed in an instant. Never to return again.” The truth hurts…
    Many thanks, yingniang~

  14. Am not rooting for ZX. it is plain to see that the author is insinuating that ZX likes her at this point. but he allowed these misunderstandings to happen, basically contributed to the humiliation that the female lead experienced. how can he sit in solemnity and sadness when FL does not want to be around him. what has he done at this point to indicate to her that he actually cares for her past obligation. everything “nice” that he’s done looks like he did it because he wanted to pay FL back and honestly can be misunderstood that way too. my biggest issue with him is that he mischaracterized her as a malicious and destructive force who would intentionally harm RR. all her does is humiliate and frustrate FL. he sent her a fully written thesis as an “apology” but when did she ask for his plagiarism? i would much rather hear “sorry” then be given a pity thesis. who asked him to stay up all night writing someone else’s paper? i thought he hated people who depended on others instead of doing their own hard work. hypocrite.
    I wish ZX would just go stick with RR like he always does instead of creating misunderstandings and then pretending to be a victim to FL’s coldness. he didn’t want her to come to his celebration party, he insulted her integrity and twisted her words so that she looked like an unthankful spoiled brat, he glared hatefully down at her when it was clear that RR was ganging up on FL with no evidence, he consistently sticks around her after that fact and intentionally guilt trips her into forgiving him after basically humiliating her in front of her awful friends (who are not any better). don’t understand how this kind of character who creates emotional distress for FL constantly can be the first lead. so what he’s smart. he has no emotional intelligence. so when Fl is around Zx, he is cold and rude and mean, but when FL wants space and to be away from this guy who makes her cry, he is constantly around her and trying to give them opportunities to meet up. is he a sociopath???
    the FL isn’t any better. she lets her friends push her around and didn’t call any of them out for not trying to defend her at all. instead of asserting her position as a victim in this situation she lets her awful friends talk crap and then gain her forgiveness. she allows her heart to be moved by a man who she thinks doesn’t even care about her. she gets suckered into situations where she has to interact with ZX. can they not just leave her alone and give her time to think about what happened? this story gives me goosebumps at how complacent the FL is and how sadistic and cruel the ML is. can’t wait for second lead. great translations, but my heart is feeling stuffy. hopefully this gets better.

  15. I wrote a comment but it seems to not have been posted.
    Anyway the way the story is written reminds me of Pride and prejudice. The story is written from the FL point of view, it very well may be biased. The FL may not even have all the information about things before she starts her theory about things and situations that have happened to her. Maybe she is inclined to think that the ML hates her because of him rejecting her and his alleged realtionship to RR.
    What I think about the ML is that he likes her but does not dare start a relationship with her or even clarify past misunderstanding because he doesn’t think he is in the same social status/background as her or that she would be better off with someone from the same background. His need to pay off debts if something I totally agree with, with a sick mother and younger brother I see why he wouldn’t want to owe anyone a favour or even kindness. Sometimes even kindness and gratitude have to be paid back.
    Is the 40 chapters just the first book? Has the second book not come out and translated yet? I started this story thinking it was completed but it seems it has not. Anyone please answer if the story is completed or not.

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