Fangirling Chinese Novels

Blazing Sunlight I (骄阳似我 上) – Chapter 38



The countdown has started as we are down to the last 3 chapters 😦 Isn’t Lin Yu Sen romantic to send Xi Guang a letter instead of an email? Isn’t the content of his letter touching?

Chapter 38

I did not know what to say.

He also seemed to be in a similar situation.

While my state of mind was still in chaos, he sent me back to the company’s dormitory. We did not say any word all the way. Even when I got off, he just nodded his head.

I looked at his car being driven away, until it disappeared from view.

On the next morning, it will come as no surprise that two dark circles appeared under my eyes.

Before the music to signal the beginning of a work day was broadcast, I could not help looking several times at his empty office. When it was time to start work, his office was still empty.

President Zhang quickly called me into his office. “Little Nie, did Vice President Lin contact you?”

I shook my head.

“I called his mobile phone but he has switched it off.” President Zhang was feeling a little anxious. He looked at me, but did not ask anything further. Instead he changed the topic to talk about my father. After chatting briefly, he courteously sent me out.

For the whole morning, I looked at my mobile phone several times, but I did not end up making any phone call.

In the afternoon, President Zhang convened a short meeting with the staff in our department. He said to give any recent work directly to him because Vice President Lin was on leave and has gone on a trip.

Only going on a trip ……

My heart was relieved, but there was an indescribable discomfort in the chest.

I made a call to father and used a matter of fact tone to describe the entire incident. Initially, I intended not to add any personal sentiment, but in the end, I cannot help being sarcastic.

“Dad, will this be considered like mother like daughter?”

In those days, Ma Nian Yuan’s mother complained about father’s poor family. Then she got to know a so-called elite. Once Ma Nian Yuan heard Lin Yu Sen had a car accident, she was not even willing to visit him. She took the initiative to tell my dad, probably wanting to act pitiful in front of my dad first. Really annoying, don’t tell me Lin Yu Sen will cling to her and want her to take responsibility?

Really exasperating, ridiculous and extremely hateful.

After a few days, Lin Yu Sen still did not show up. I could not help but starting to think where he would go. Was he alone or went together with a friend?

Could he has gone too far, so simply cannot remember me?

No no – What was I thinking.

However, I cannot control myself and began to inexplicably go online to look at some travel information.

In the blink of an eye, it was Friday. I went with Yin Jie and others to the canteen to have lunch. When I was walking out of the office building, I was stopped by the receptionist at the front desk.

“Nie Xi Guang, there is a letter for you.”

Since the widespread use of email, I have never received paper mail letter any more. Holding the thick envelope in my hand, it has a different feel.

Yin Jie was curious so she moved closer to take a peep: “What kind of letter? Wow, love letter?”

I subconsciously stuffed the letter into my pocket and said casually: “Bank statement.”

Yin Jie immediately lost interest and started to guess what will the canteen be serving today. While I was chatting with her, my hand gripped the letter in the pocket tightly.

While lining up in the canteen, I quietly pulled out part of the letter ——

That natural, smooth and flowing style of handwriting.

Was Lin Yu Sen’s handwriting.

I really controlled myself and did not take a look until after work.

I had already told mother earlier that I will be going home this weekend. Hence I took my stuff and went to the station after work.

I chose to go home by bus.

The coach traveled along the highway from Suzhou to Wuxi. I looked at the extensive road network outside the window and could not help but to think whether Lin Yu Sen had an accident on this stretch of the highway. So what was he thinking when he drove me back, passing here last time?

At that time, he must have thought the person sitting next to him, was the one who invited him to come here. Also, the same person who left him in the lurch and caused him to be unable to pick up the scalpel any more.

While thinking about this, I cannot control myself any more and took out the letter which I’ve touched many times from my pocket. Then I carefully opened it.

The envelope was very thick, but mostly postcards, with only one page of writing.

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Xi Guang, the first time I saw you was at Madam Yu’s dinner party. That was a dinner party which I did not want to attend. Everything was so boring, I might as well stay at home alone to read the medical magazine. Until I met you.

At that time, you were venting your anger on a girl, thereby attracting the attention of everyone present. Like other onlookers, I should sympathize with that girl who you berated until about to cry, but I was very attracted to you. I just felt that you looked so dazzling.

Was I that aggressive? Probably in a fit of anger, I became overly expressive? When I saw father brought Ma Nian Yuan to godmother birthday party, I was really angry and mad. Bringing that woman’s child to a relative’s dinner party, how will my mother feel then. Particularly, that girl liked to act pitiful. I did not say anything but she already acting like she was being bullied. Then I might as well really flare up.

I was thinking I must find a way to know this girl. It just so happened that Jia Qi introduced me to his friends, which included you. I am very certain now that you did not pay any attention to me at that time, so did not have the slightest impression of me. I tried to get close to you without being too obvious, but you disappeared from the dinner party very quickly. I thought perhaps I need not be so anxious, I can start preparing a near perfect plan first.

Therefore, a few days later when I received your invitation to view and appreciate plum blossoms, I was simply ecstatic.

That day, I performed a highly successful operation. After finishing off at the operating table, I drove to Wuxi. I never thought, this will be my last time using a scalpel on the operating table. 

I had a car accident on the highway.

My injury may not have been life threatening, but I can no longer be a top surgeon. Because in addition to the hand, there is also the eyes. During that time, I was covered with gauze and lying in the hospital bed, thinking whether this is the price I’ve to pay in order to meet that girl? I will not take my anger out on her or harbor a grudge against her. I did not even tell anyone that I had the car accident because I wanted to go and meet her. But why she didn’t even bother to come and visit me once? 

In those days when my eyes could behold no light, you became the blight of my heart.

And one that I was never set free from. 

Thus, when I heard that you are doing your internship in this company, I left Sheng Yuan’s head office to go to Suzhou. However, I did not expect you not to recognize me at all.

Yes, how can you recognize me since that person who invited me to go to Wuxi was not you.

But Xi Guang, you have always been the one for whom I came.

© 2013-2016 FANATICAL ALL RIGHTS RESERVED. If you are not reading this from, then this translation has been posted without the permission of the translator.

—— You became the blight of my heart.

I stared blankly at the letter.

Actually, from beginning to end, the one who caused him so much misery was Ma Nian Yuan. In that case, shouldn’t the blight of his heart be Ma Nian Yuan.

No, no, no. This thought had only just begun to take shape before I immediately erased it resolutely from my mind.

How could it be another person? In Lin Yu Sen’s eyes and heart, the person he has always been thinking ——


Was me!

“You have always been the one for whom I came.”

It was merely a sentence on a piece of paper, but I can already imagine Lin Yu Sen’s appearance and tone of voice. That kind of gentle and soft, also deep and low voice ……

I unconsciously pressed my face against the ice-cold window of the bus. A strange and never experienced before kind of emotion aroused in my heart, which cannot be considered as happiness, anger, heartbeat or something else.

Suddenly I behaved impetuously and picked up the mobile phone. After searching for his number, my finger pressed the call button before giving careful consideration. The other side did not give me any chance to back out because the call was quickly picked up.

However both of us also did not say anything. After a long time, I was the one who started talking.

“Lin Yu Sen.”

Only then, he seemed certain it was me, “Xi Guang.”

“I’ve received your letter.”


“The postcards are very beautiful.”

“It is good that you like them.”

“Are you still travelling around …… approximately when are you coming back?”

There was a pause on the other end: “I am in the train station now and will arrive in Suzhou tomorrow morning.”

“Ah …… going back to Suzhou, usually you’ll pass by Wuxi …… how about, you get off at Wuxi?”

I did not know why I said those words. After I have said them, I was silent. There was also silence on the other end. After a long time, only then I heard him asked softly: “Xi Guang, are you sure?”

“…… Ah, you’ll reach Wuxi around what time? I’ll go and pick you up.”

© 2013-2016 FANATICAL ALL RIGHTS RESERVED. If you are not reading this from, then this translation has been posted without the permission of the translator.

38 of 40 Chapters

24 thoughts on “Blazing Sunlight I (骄阳似我 上) – Chapter 38

  1. Such a simple short and yet sweet letter to Xi Guang. How I wished that there is such love and man in real life. Thank you Peanuts for the lovely chapter.

  2. i am so touched…..”In Lin Yu Sen’s eyes and heart, the person he has always been thinking ——Was me!”….

  3. If there was ever any room for me to jump ship. It’s gone now. LYS you romantic sweet man. This chapter is probably my favorite chapter of them all. I love how XG is so confident in him and does not second guess him when it comes to other women.

  4. LYS for the wiiiiiiiin.

    Also csn someone explain the Ma girl’s relationship to XG and her father ? Why does he consider her?

    • Hey, you didn’t pay full attention when you read the novel 😛

      Ma Nian Yuan is the daughter of XG’s dad’s ex-gf. She considered herself as XG’s dad’s god-daughter. The mother dumped XG’s dad & married a rich guy bcos he was poor. When he became rich & the hubby turned poor, she tried to get back into his life resulting in XG’s parents’ divorce. XG & her mum hate this pair of mother & daughter. But the dad’s feeling is a bit ambiguous.

      • I swear I did! But the chapters come out with so much time in between that I forget. I sorry! When this all finishes I’m going to read it all in one go. Thanks for the update.

  5. Thank you for the chapter! I’ll be very sad when we run out of chapters without a part 2 even in sight 😥 LYS is definitely a romantic at heart – I’m so jealous of Xi Guang as she has such a tangible and personal token of love.

  6. So sweet!! He really love her from the start. Thank you so much!! 😘😘😘.

  7. swoon worthy 😍

    Thanks much 😘

  8. Thaaank youuu♡
    Sweet and sad…

  9. I hope that LYS will win XQ in the second book provided the author decided to write n publish it. Definitely shipping for LYS instead of the sour puss from the University.

    Thanking you for this chapter. 😀

  10. I hope LXG does not hook up with LS out of sympathy. So far it seems like she has not dealt with her feeling with Z yet. Now to start going out with LS and not clear about why would cause problem later on. Thanks for the update.

  11. Thanks for the chapter. Cliffhanger agh!!

  12. I try to be open minded about relationships and am not one to think that one side “deserves” to succeed in love because he/she is more pleasing to the reader. The heart wants what the heart wants. However, I am finding it really hard this time. Even if XG is not over ZX yet, I can’t bear her going back to him unless they do some major character repair. I guess both guys have acted badly, but they both think they have justification. However, in LYS’s case he was definitely wronged and if he had done what he thought, i wouldn’t blame him for his actions. he still fell for her regardless. With ZX, he may feel he was wronged but all the time he spent breaking her heart and acting wishy washy and letting her be hurt and not speaking up is all his fault. he has no right to be upset with her.

    Thanks for the chapter. I really hope Book 2 doesn’t take too much longer.

    • U’ve only read half of the story. GM insinuated ZX & LYS are not what they appeared to be in book 1. Thus I guess she’ll elaborate more in book 2. Just dun make LYS into a villain or someone bad bcos my emotion is too invested in him to believe he can do any wrong 😛

      • I suppose it’s not completely out of the realm of possibility that, before coming down to Suzhou, a bitter (still thinking himself wronged by NXG) and ambitious LYS might have made a sort of devil’s pact with his maternal grandfather–that he would chase and catch their business partner Nie’s daughter (and sole heir), so as to ultimately keep (through marriage and/or manipulation) all that wealth in their own family. Added bonus: LYS would get revenge. It’s an ugly arrangement and seems way, way out of character for the upright LYS–but what else could plausibly be his hidden sin that makes him different than what he appears to be in Book 1?
        I do believe he liked NXG two years before, and that he’s come to love her sincerely by the end of Book 1, but if such a huge betrayal of her trust lies at the foundation of their relationship, they really were doomed from the start. So maybe that’s how they end up separating in Book 2?
        Anyway, I don’t know which way Gu Man will choose to go with the plot–the possibilities percolating in a writer’s mind are endless–but your post above opens up quite a few possibilities that are painful to speculate about because they hit us in our LYS-shipper’s heart.
        I will really, really hate it if Gu Man makes LYS an outright villain in Book 2–moral ambiguity is okay, but please no complete character assassination for my dear VP Lin–just to justify NXG ending up with ZX. But here’s the conundrum: without a breakup with LYS, there’s no (reason for) Book 2 at all. If, however, LYS remains as flawless as he appears to be in Book 1, readers might never forgive NXG for breaking up with him–and Gu Man can’t have us all hating her heroine.

  13. Thanks Peanuts. Finally, this sheds light on LYS’s heart and motives. Hope that XG will open her heart to LYS.

  14. HUAAAAAAA…. thank you peanuts. i miss my Lin VP so much, and im glad, he finally told her. finally. and they’ll meet up.

    however, with only 2 chapters left.. and still have no idea about when will the book 2 come… aaaahhh… i hope this one is a happy ending. hope soooo…

    thank you ^^

    • Hey Yui, busy drooling over your Korean boys or some other nationality since never see u support my new novel Don’t be So Proud lol?

      Aiya, no need to worry abt book 2. Book 1 can be considered having an ending by itself, no cliff hanger.

  15. My fav chapter … So touching

  16. Can’t wait till the next chapter. …..

  17. Oh my, so it’s love at first sight hah ❤

  18. VP Lin..He suffered a lot. His points now have reached burj khalifa haha
    I really like that both of them are honest with each other. The letter was sad and sweet, in my eyes and heart, i was thinking always you~ this is such a romantic line 🤩

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