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My Darling (我的曼达林) — Chapter 6.4


We get to learn more about his past rumour and even meet the other party in that rumour. What do you think the truth is?

Chapter 6.4 — Love (4)

In a blink, Lunar New Year also passed.

Though Jian Bianlin wanted to see more of Chu Jian, it was not possible, lest his father detect any hints of something. The ice was finally broken in their relationship of many years, and he feared making any misstep. So, he suffered like this all the way until the Lunar New Year period was over and he went to join his next cast and crew on filming site. Chu Jian had arranged with him that on the day he was leaving, she would drive his car to take him to his company’s office.

They had agreed to meet in the underground parking garage. Jian Bianlin arrived first and turned on the heat to warm up the car for her. After a little while, he felt that it was too hot inside the vehicle, so he turned the temperature down again slightly.

From the elevator landing, Chu Jian ran over, one hand on top of her purse and the other holding down her hat. When she pulled open the car door, she was still gasping lightly. “Right before I headed out, I was setting up wi-fi for your dad. The ethernet port in your place isn’t very stable, so I connected him to my home’s wi-fi.”

He nodded. With both hands turning the steering wheel, he drove the car out.

The temperature in the vehicle was likely too comfortable, because before long, Chu Jian’s eyes were beginning to narrow, and after another dozen or so minutes, she was completely asleep. When, from the corner of his eye, Jian Bianlin saw her leaning back with her head crooked to the side, it felt a little like… a wrinkle had occurred in the space-time continuum.

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It was the return trip back from the spring outing of their first year of high school. After every row, from front to back, of every bus had been filled, the students of Class No. 9, as the last of all the classes in the entire grade, were all separated and stuffed wherever there was room in the other classes’ buses.

Chu Jian and a few other girls had been allocated to Class No. 1’s bus.

That evening, while they were driving back beneath the heavy curtain of night, Jian Bianlin, as the class prefect, had been doing a head count with the teacher. Walking to the back row, he saw her, her head leaning against the glass of the bus window and her eyes closed, but he was not certain if she was simply tired or feeling ill. He had hesitated over whether or not he should go over to pat her and ask whether she was sleepy or unwell. As a result of this little thought, he had stood beside her for more than one minute.

So, what had he done back then? It would seem he had changed seats with a boy in his class who was sitting across the aisle. In his new seat, there was only a girl from Class No. 9 separating him from Chu Jian. For the two-plus-hour bus ride, inside that bus interior that was without lights, he had gazed at her under the not-very-bright moonlight as she rested against the bus window, her soft hairs tucked behind her ear. Her hairstyle had been short. Ever since she was a child, she had worn her hair short. If it grew a little longer, she would tuck it behind her ears, and if it were a little shorter, it frequently would be in complete disarray from sleeping on it, such that one day, this part would stick up and another day, that part would be squashed flat.

That night, she had slept soundly. Her forehead, in rhythm with the rocking and jolting of the bus’s motions, would bump a little bit against the glass…

Uncomfortable. He had felt uncomfortable from simply seeing her forehead resting against such hard glass.

If by chance the brakes on the bus were suddenly slammed, her head would collide into the window.

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Taking advantage of a red traffic light, Jian Bianlin reached behind and grabbed a throw cushion from the backseat. He nudged her awake and handed the cushion to her. Chu Jian was a little dazed, and only after he instructed her to lean against it to sleep did she understand. With a smile that caused her eyes to disappear into squints, she laid her seat down and, hugging that cushion, continued dozing.

When their car arrived at the destination, the time was still early.

Soundlessly, he sat for a dozen or so minutes until that dozing person finally awoke. Rubbing her eyes, she asked, “Why didn’t you wake me up?”

“It’s still early.”

“It’s not like it’s comfortable sitting in the car.” Chu Jian unfastened her seatbelt. “Let’s go up first?”

Jian Bianlin thrummed two fingers against the steering wheel. “Just like that, we’re going to go up? Shouldn’t you do something as an expression of your feelings? …”

Muttering a “Scoundrel!” Chu Jian pointed at her own lips, the meaning of that being, I’m too lazy to move. Come get it yourself.

It had been nearly two months now since they had officially starting dating, and there were some things that she had grown accustomed to.

For instance, he always liked to seize every opportunity to do lovey-dovey things with her. Chu Jian had even discussed this in vague terms with Tong Fei. Tong Fei’s conclusion was that Jian Bianlin must be a man who had never done it before… But not far into their discussion, Tong Fei had begun to waver on her certainty of that and hinted to Chu Jian that there really might have been something to that romance rumour about Jian Bianlin that had once circulated around. Even Xie Bin had never directly declared it to be untrue.

Chu Jian’s mind had wandered a bit.

He tousled the bangs of her hair. This time, it really was cut a little too short. The hairstylist had rather bad taste.

But… she was still very pretty.

Jian Bianlin moved in closer, blocking the view in front of her, and gently pressed his lips onto hers. “What are you thinking?” Chu Jian let out an “mmph.” But before she had a chance to speak, his tongue had already slipped inside. It had been several days since he last did this, so the instant he contacted her slippery little tongue, Jian Bianlin very much felt his control slipping.

No longer satisfied with simply caressing her ear, while he pressed down on her tongue, his hand also slid down from beside her neck and, as if compelled by an unknown force, found the edge of the rounded contours of her chest…

It was too real, even through her sweater. He tightened his fingers, unable to stop himself from taking hold of it and kneading it a couple of times.

Breaths that were burning hot.

Letting out a couple of cries of “mmph,” Chu Jian bumped him away. She pulled herself backward, and with eyes that had turned slightly red from anxiousness, she reminded, “We’re still outside…” There was a faint nasalness to each word that she spoke. She was so embarrassed that she wanted to jump out of the vehicle, yet at the same time, she also wanted to shove him off the car.


In that enclosed space inside the vehicle, she desperately avoided his gaze. The deafening sound she was hearing was the pounding of her own heart.

After a long time had passed, Jian Bianlin finally dared to rest his chin on her shoulder. In a husky voice, he stated, “There’s a little bit of a problem.”

Her heart still feeling tingly, she shirked away from him. “… What’s wrong?”

“I want to get married.”

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Jian Bianlin avoided most of the parking garage and got into a company vehicle. Xie Bin asked him, “Where’s your wife? She’s gone back?”

He did not answer.

Surmising that Jian Bianlin must still be in new-couple bliss and was not used to being separated from his love, Xie Bin abandoned his questions. Throwing his jacket over his own face, Xie Bin went to sleep first.

By the time they arrived in Hengdian[1], it was fast approaching midnight. Fortunately, Xie Bin came here often and was well acquainted with the several restaurant owners. When they stepped inside, more than half the crew was already waiting there. To have a work kick-off dinner at midnight—there sure were not many people who did that.

Jian Bianlin was a big-name movie star, so it was not often that he came to Hengdian.

They had just arrived and now jumped straightaway into filming some night scenes. On one filming site, there were four or five different teams of crew. Over on this side, there was a fight going on; that side, imperial court was in session; and off in the distance, there was even some scheming going on in the palace—such a delightful scene, was it not?

Beside him, someone set down a paper cup and poured coffee into it. “It’s the first time I’ve seen you here in Hengdian.

The voice sounded familiar to Jian Bianlin, so he lifted his eyes. Her?

“It’s been a few years.” The lights’ reflection could be seen in Ruan Xi’s eyes. “You’ve been rather unkind, Jian Bianlin. Back then, we could be considered to be friends, but later, the condition that your agent gave to a producer every time was that you would not appear in the same cast as me. You made me lose quite a bit of face.”

Jian Bianlin was wearing one of the custom-made down parkas that were a specialty of Hengdian, and it garbed him from his head all the way to his calves. When he heard this chain of sentences, he did not offer even a response. Pulling up the hood of his parka, he slipped it on.

Giving the cold shoulder to people like this was common behavior for him.

In the end, even Jian Bianlin’s assistant felt bad for Ruan Xi, that she was not being given face, and stepping up to them, he helped to smooth the situation over. When she left, the assistant, Xiao Yu, muttered under his breath, “Don’t tell me she doesn’t even know that our Jian Ge doesn’t drink coffee? And here she’s still trying to throw herself at him.”

His assistant took the coffee and walked off, treating it like trash and throwing it away.

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Ruan Xi had indeed been correct in what she had said. After the singing competition—to be more exact, after Jian Bianlin shot up in popularity last year and some photographs from the competition were released to the public—Jian Bianlin’s side had, in a single night, lost several hundred thousand in the form of red packet money[2] in order to suppress the rumour that had been going around. While they were at it, whenever any producers sought Jian Bianlin out, the one stipulation that was laid out was that the cast that Jian Bianlin was joining could not have Ruan Xi in it.

Though the situation had been labeled as a “hot piece of romantic gossip,” it was actually merely a set of photographs that contained the two together with no one else around.

During the competition, there had been a gathering of a bunch of people having fun and goofing around. He remembered, that day had been Chu Jian’s birthday. He had taken first place in the competition and had wanted to share that moment with her but had not been able to get ahold of her for the entire day. In a moment of overthinking, he had consumed some alcohol and then chatted briefly with Ruan Xi in a corner, their backs facing the group. The content of their conversation had all been about Chu Jian.

That night, someone had selectively chosen a strategic angle and taken many photographs of them.

Actually, he and Ruan Xi were not the only ones. That night had been a farewell dinner gathering. Everyone had consumed quite a bit of alcohol, and there were photographs of each person whispering head to head with someone else… except he was the only one who was now big and crazily popular. Naturally, then, of the photographs that ended up getting exposed to the public, a greater number of them contained him.

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Jian Bianlin unconsciously spun that small pinky ring of his.

Yawning, Xie Bin walked over to him.

Not far away, a film crew was shooting one of those silly, melodramatic dramas[3] while playing a Yangko[4] folk song. In the middle of the night, this was just too weird. Xie Bin listened with a painful grimace as he asked, “What are you thinking about? You’re looking so preoccupied it’s like your soul has drifted out of your body.”

Jian Bianlin let himself flop back into his folding sling chair, his eyes fixed on a palace lantern in the distance that was swaying in the wind. “I’m thinking about my wife.”

He wanted to hear her voice, to hear her call him with cries of “Jian Bianlin, Jian Bianlin.”

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[1] Hengdian World Studios is a film studio located in the town of Hengdian, and is the largest outdoor film studio in the world, with replicas, not facades, of both the Forbidden City and the Old Summer Palace, as well as themed areas such as streets of Hong Kong and Guangzhou, grottos, riverside town, etc. Movies and television dramas alike are filmed in this place, but actors who film television dramas, and in particular, period dramas, would spend more time here.

[2]Refer to footnote [1] in chapter 5.5. In this case, Jian Bianlin’s side gave out cash gifts to the media and other powers that be to stop the spread of the romantic rumour going around that was linking Jian Bianlin to Ruan Xi.

[3]雷剧 “lei ju.” A “lei ju” is a slang term used on the internet describing a drama that either strives to be silly in style (e.g. period drama with dialogue that contains modern slang) or is so melodramatic it becomes almost ridiculous.

[4]大秧歌 “da yangge.” Literally meaning “rice seedling song,” Yangko (sometimes simply transliterated using its pinyin form, Yangge) is a form of rural folk dance in China and can be traced back a thousand years. It was originally a dance for fertility for farmers planting rice in their fields. The number of dancers is not fixed, and it is not an uncommon sight to see crowds of people dancing in a line or circle on the streets together. A characteristic feature of the dance is the use of colorful fans. Here is an example of a Yangko dance performance.

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50 thoughts on “My Darling (我的曼达林) — Chapter 6.4

  1. Yeah there’s no way. He’s obsessed and no other woman would ever enter his vision. I feel a bit bad for Ruan Xi. Just because they were photographed together she can’t act or appear with the hottest star around. That must have stunted some of her chances. But i love the way he shoots everyone down leaving no room for misunderstanding.

    Marriage again? I wonder what her reply was this time? I’m guessing no again, but in a gentler way. Maybe a postponement?

    Thanks for the chapter.

    • I do, and I don’t. This has been Jian Bianlin’s one and only rumour. That says something about the career path that he has chosen for himself, which is also evidenced in the lack of romance films that he has filmed. Ruan Xi’s company, on the other hand, would certainly try to milk this to boost her since any publicity with him would be awesome publicity for her. He is taking steps to prevent his career from being distracted by things he absolutely does not want anything to do with for he knows that it would not stop there if he didn’t stop it. These things happen in the entertainment industry a lot, from spending $ to create rumours to spending $ to suppress them. However, the one thing I feel bad for Ruan Xi is, as she said, the refusal to participate in anything with her isn’t necessarily robbing her of opportunity but causing her to lose face in industry. Perhaps this may affect her in less tangible ways, such as “She’s the girl that Jian Bianlin doesn’t want to work with; let’s not even consider her…”

      I do love that about him. I think it’s partly because he doesn’t want Chu Jian to understand but partly because, in his heart, he absolutely does not want to have any relation to any other female entity aside from Chu Jian.

      Hmm… this one is a little different. This was not a question, it was just an “I want to get married.” I really think that he was just saying what he desired in his heart and not expecting an answer from her.

      You’re welcome. 🙂

  2. 😱 “I’m thinking about my wife.” I could just melt with this sentence alone 😱😱😱

    Sweetness to the max…. and I am reading this as I head out on the train to another city for a day trip meeting…. thank you Hoju for brightening up my day already even before I start my journey 😘 now… Saturday…. when are you getting here! 🤣🤣🤣

    • *wipes up the puddle that was once mhryu*

      Hope your little day trip was pleasant. 🙂 I’m glad you could take little tidbits of Chu Jian and Jian Bianlin along on your journey. Your Saturday is here!

  3. Thank you for this chapter…

  4. CLIFFHANGER DID SHE SAY YES??? (Also – I love your footnotes. Have I told you that?)

    • LOL. I honestly don’t think it was a proposal. It was just him stating what he really wished for.

      Yes, and thank you for always encouraging me about the footnotes. Every once in a while, I will wonder if people still read them. 🙂

  5. Amazing….
    Even after years… he’s still head over heels for her. Wow…

    • Isn’t it? That type of love is rare, but it does happen. And whenever it does, it always deserves a “wow.”

  6. Haha, anything that make his wife distance herself from him is a big no-no to ML. Even it is just a rumour..

    And, thank you for the translation, hoju ~~

    • Of course. He doesn’t want Chu Jian to misunderstand. I also think it’s partly him, too. He does not want to be associated with any girl aside from Chu Jian.

      You’re welcome. 🙂 Thank you for reading.

  7. Is the word “wife” here used to mean that they got married? Or is it just used in the colloquial sense to refer to Chu Jian as the girlfriend?

    Thanks for translating! Can’t wait for the next update!!!

    • I guess it for gf still.
      I read many other chinese novels. They always refer their gf as wife.
      Good actually.. cause they think the love as wife already (meaning wont see any other girl anymore)

      • *thumbs up*

        It certainly is a level up from the casual dating relationship, but it is really commonplace nowadays in China to refer to your significant other as husband and wife.

    • As Ara said, nope, they didn’t get married. It’s definitely colloquial. In China, dating couples often refer to one another as husband and wife.

      You’re welcome!

  8. He’s just a taaad bit pushy

    • In what sense here? *curious*
      If you’re referring to the marriage statement, I truly believe he was not proposing nor even thinking that this might bring Chu Jian closer in her mind to marriage. The words, I believe, should be taken at exactly face value. “I want to get married.” Just an expression of desire. 🙂

  9. Fourteen more chapters left ah.
    I’ll be missing this characters too.

    • Someone who watches the progress tracker! 😉
      Yes, this is a relatively shorter novel. Don’t be sad yet! There’s still 14 to go.

  10. I figured his scandal was something like that. Now we need to find out the real reason he beat up that guy in high school.

    I am looking forward to seeing Jian’s reaction to that proposal.

    • I love how you’ve never forgotten that detail. 🙂

      I really don’t think of that statement as a proposal. It’s merely a statement, to be taken at face value. “I want to get married” is just his way of saying what’s on his heart. And Chu Jian is in love with him this time, so it shouldn’t frighten her like it did last time to know that he’s thinking about it. It may still be too early to actually carry through with getting married, but the “flying off the swing” feeling that she once described it as should be gone.

  11. and that rumor is indirectly related to Chu Jian haha “The content of their conversation had all been about Chu Jian” if only she pick up the call, he wouldn’t drink that much I supposed kkk
    I wonder what will Chu Jian do now…Jian Bianlin want to get married xD

    As for my prediction, Jian Uncle would probably scold Jian Bianlin for ‘tricking’ Chu Jian haha and Chu Jian’s parents might say yes? cause they all have been wanting to see Jian Bianlin getting a girlfriend, and it’s just that that girlfriend turns out to be their daughter kkkk ^^

    • Uh-huh. As he once said, she and his father are the most important people in his life.

      Chu Jian… will continue loving Jian Bianlin and wait for the timing that she feels is appropriate. 😉

      Hahaha! Hold that thought, then. Let’s see whether your prediction will come true. 🙂

  12. Only seeing waifu. Only thinking of waifu. Ohh i so like this guy. Knows what he wants and goes for it. When having it in his hands, he won’t let anyone enters even an inch.

    When acting is life but waifu is lifer

    (≧▽≦)/ ♡

  13. Thank you for the new chapter!! 😀

  14. once CJ lets go the last of her barriers, JBL is trying to go full speed ahead…go go go

    thank you!

    • I don’t think he’s trying to go full speed, at least, not with that statement. But of course, he wouldn’t mind it if she did unexpectedly agree to marriage. 😉

      You’re welcome!

  15. So sweet, I’m going to melt. Thank you so much Hoju!! 😘😘😘

  16. I think they are in the right age for marriage. However, their relationship is just getting started. Maybe CJ somehow doubt or maybe she wanted to build a solid foundation before entering the next chapter of their life. Nonetheless, I am excited how will JB convinced his future wife. JB is totally a one woman man. 👌🏼👏🏻 Bravo! Thanks for the new chapter 👌🏼🤗

    • Chu Jian doesn’t have doubts anymore. She said herself that unless he does something to hurt or betray her, she will never break up with him, so to her, he already is her life partner. It’s early because they’re still in that stage that many new couples go through about keeping it secret. For what reason? Sometimes you just don’t know how to tell people (especially for them, when they’ve been labeled as “just friends” for so many years), and sometimes, you just want to enjoy that privacy of being a couple without anyone else getting involved in any form or fashion. But marriage, though only between two people, is something that *will* involve family. So they have to move to that stage of letting family know before I think Chu Jian can psychologically feel comfortable with formally progressing to the next step. (Her heart and mind already has agreed that the next step will happen, but it’s just a matter of when.)

      Yup, yup. Faithfulness is one of Jian Bianlin’s dominant traits. I love that trait!

  17. Thank you for your translation. Waiting to know the answer of the marriage proposal. Will it be next posting?

    • You’re welcome!

      I don’t think this is a spoiler, so I’ll answer the question. I don’t think Jian Bianlin was intentionally proposing to her, just stating what he really wanted, so I don’t think he was expecting a yes or no answer from Chu Jian either. So, nope, no answer next post. 😉

  18. Again, thank you Hoju. JB really can’t hold his heart and that’s understandable…ah really want to know CJ reaction.
    CJ slight jealousy and JB action to prevent really serious, no room for doubt.

    • He’s never been able to control his heart and feelings for her. If he could, he would have given up after all those years. 🙂 I love that he leaves no room for any sort of doubt.

  19. JB’s feelings for CJ is so deep .
    Thank you hoju for the new chapter 🙂 can’t wait for the next …

  20. haha his wife indeed. thanks hoju. hav a great day ahead

    • He’s been waiting for so long to be able to say that she is his “wife.”
      You’re welcome. Hope your day is wonderful!

  21. Thanks for the nice update Hoju…

  22. Thank you for the chapter~
    Wife huh…so did she accept?

  23. The timing of his statement of intent/desire – I suspect he wants to be married because he loves her; he wants to get married because he wants to get physical. It almost seemed as though he felt the biggest restraint on in-car-fondling was the lack of paperwork. In that case, they better get really really serious window tinting for the future.

  24. “I’m thinking about my way.” So sweet! Thanks again, hoju ❤

  25. My cheeks are stiff ahh.. Cant stop smiling

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